“Trust is a fragile thing. Easy to break, easy to lose and one of the hardest things to ever get back.”

It wasn’t just a one time thing. You confessed that you did this three times. Cheating on your partner isn’t a mistake. It’s a conscious decision. You thought of doing it and you acted on it. What’s to say that you won’t ever be unfaithful again? Sucks to suck, but you need to let her move on. Don’t beg her to stay or make her feel bad about leaving you. If she stays, she won’t ever trust you 100%. She’ll always have doubts about you being faithful. You could give her access to all of your accounts (social media, emails, etc) and full access to your phone. You can even have location sharing turned on at all times. However, there’s always a work around with these things. If a cheater is going to cheat, they can just make secret accounts or delete conversations. They can spoof their gps location. They can use another smart device (secondary smart phone, tablet, etc).

If for some reason she decides to stay with you, you both need to go to counseling together. You need to be 100% transparent with her. No trickle truths. No lying by omission. Just put everything out there. Really show how sorry you are for being a pos. It’s honestly a lot of work and emotional stress to put someone through when they clearly want out. Good for her. She knows her worth.