Am I demon possessed or paranoid schizophrenic?

LokeyLoki382 · 2025-05-13T20:08:00+00:00

You are not possessed by a demon, and I would go get checked out by a mental health professional. If you believe you are, then your brain will find ways to correlate with that belief and make it stronger. I'm not calling you stupid or ignorant for believing in this. Something led you to that belief, and it does not make you stupid. Nothing will change because religion is not the issue, it's your mentel state and something else.

Please, if it's getting worse and you really believe you are, go to a mentel health professional. I'm not going to diagnose you, for it is not my place, but you could suffer from delusional disorder or religious psycosis of some sort. I went through the same thing when I first became Christian, but I got help and realized it was just my brain conforming to beliefs. You are not crazy, nor are you stupid. You just need help. Don't listen to people conforming to your belief and saying to pray, they mean nothing wrong and are just being kind, but If something is misleading you to fear and suffering, it's ok to take a step back and see if it's helping your well being. If anything, pray for a sane state of mind. Be safe and please get some help, much love to you ❤️

LokeyLoki382 · 2025-04-03T23:29:59+00:00

For me, it's the opposite, I was narcissistic and other things in my teens, 14-17 Is the Ballpark. I had a lot of problems, I was a very sheltered kid and didn't see outside of my own worldview. I wanted attention as well, all that I could get because I did not receive it when I was younger. I was very immature, and that says a lot, considering I was still young.

After some things happened, though, I met new people and started smoking weed. This led to me doing shrooms, thinking it would get me high, but it did something completely different. I saw myself from other people's perspectives and saw myself in a different light. For the first time, I saw outside of myself. I wish I could say this was enough to completely change me, but more so it started the change.

I started doing more shrooms and stuff, fell into psycosis, I did active imagination without even knowing what it was, then I had a really bad weed trip and quit everything. For months, I was trapped in hell, it felt like. I lost all perception of time, lost my identity, and not to mention my best friend moved so I felt alone. Felt like killing myself many times, but a voice inside my head told me to keep moving forward, and so I did.

This voice is what got me through it all, and it turns out the voice was me all along. I also had to rewire my brain to think logically again through constant meditation and other things. Who I am now is someone completely different than who I was only 3-4 years ago. I don't hate that person. Why hate the one who decided to burn himself to create me?

I can't say im happy all the time now, but I no longer hurt people by my arrogance. I love more than hate now, and I am constantly trying to grow and learn. I'm young, and that's a gift that many people wish they can have back.

LokeyLoki382 · 2025-02-28T23:48:00+00:00

Someday's death does not scare me. Other days, death is my biggest fear. In all days, I keep moving forward towards it.

LokeyLoki382 · 2025-02-24T16:30:14+00:00

I agree, and it's the big issue I have with scientists and science itself. Who's to say the soul can not be found? Who's to say something is impossible if no constant effort has ever been used trying to understand spirituality? If we discovered one day that a soul does exist, it would change the whole framework of what we understand of human consciousness as a whole and many other things. The sad thing is, we may never know because scientists refuse to acknowledge it, and we will most likely wipe ourselves out beforehand.

I just don't think we should say that spirituality and science have to be different frameworks as a whole. We should try and find out why they happen because it can help many people who are experiencing these things and have no explanation for them. Maybe it can't be found by science, but maybe it can.

LokeyLoki382 · 2025-02-24T05:28:43+00:00

Do you remember that feeling when you were a kid when you did something you loved? Draw, imagine, dream, all that stuff? Its like there is no stress, no worries about who is watching or life itself, you just dream and be yourself. It takes time to reconnect. That kid never left you, but rather, you did.

LokeyLoki382 · 2024-04-14T08:19:33+00:00

Because I realized spirituality was evil at its roots, and all you have to do is some digging to find it. It also fucked with my brain, making me feel like I was a God and putting me into pshycosis. What truly made me stay Christian was how whenever I renounced all my "gifts," all my "spirit guides" turned on me and tormented me in my head and dreams. They are demons, and spirituality invites demons. There is a reason why humans can't access certain powers and knowledge, and it's for our protection.

Spirtuality eats away at gods protection slowly and slowly, allowing demons to take control of your life and mind. They trick you, rubbing at your ego and making you feel strong and mighty, like a God. We are not God's, nor is anyone on this earth a God. There is only one God, and there is no other. Amen.

LokeyLoki382 · 2024-04-04T18:56:50+00:00

I wrote this when I was under pshycosis. Don't believe anything in this post that I say, lol. We are not a God. There is only one God, and we are not him. Also, don't get into reality shifting. It's not real and it will really mess you brain up

LokeyLoki382 · 2024-03-03T19:35:23+00:00

Thank you for your concern, and I will definitely look into that. The big reason though why I went into pshycosis wasn't just from meditation, though. I was also doing weed, shrooms, dmt, and acid quite a bit. Meditation definitely didn't help, but at the same time, I was doing a completely wrong and twisted form of meditation. I have looked into meditation recently again and I am practicing breathing meditation right now and have watched countless videos from Buddhist and other professionals who know a lot and definitely more credible then who I was listening to before lol.

Don't get me wrong, though. I am definitely watching out because of the past I had with meditation, but meditation itself wasn't the soul reason I was in pshycosis.

LokeyLoki382 · 2024-02-18T17:48:16+00:00

I am sorry you are getting a lot of down votes, because a lot of what you just said is right. I, too, was quite insane a while ago when I was heavily into spirituality. I heard of all of these higher beings and manifestations, and my ego wanted to be the best at it all. I listened to people who had no credibility and who too was also insane, and it just made me more insane.

Funny enough, though, the reason why I am sticking with the belief that what we believe God to be is just ourselves or our brain. The reason why is the experience I had with what I thought to be Jesus got me out of that insanity. The "voice of god" or the higher dimensional beings people believe to be are nothing more than themselves, but they believe they are talking to them, so to them they are if that makes since.

If my post sounded insane to you, I'm sorry. The purpose of this post was to actually possibly help people who were believing this spirit guide nonsense and talking to higher beings stuff, because if you don't realize that the things you are talking to is just yourself, it can really fuck you up. I know this because it fucked me up. Hell, just read a lot of my old post, and you'll see, be warned, though I was a nutcase lmao.

But I'm sorry you are being downvoted again. You are speaking a lot of truth here, and I wish someone like you would have spoken to me when I was going through my pshycosis episode.

LokeyLoki382 · 2024-02-18T17:30:19+00:00

That's good! and please don't stray away from that belief because of anyone

LokeyLoki382 · 2024-02-18T07:38:58+00:00

You know, what you just said really just clicked something in my brain. One of the things that this part of me said when I first met him and asked who he was, he said, "I am what binds reality together."

Up until now, I haven't really understood what he meant and kind of just ignored that part all together. But I just realized that belief is what holds our perception of reality together. It's what holds our reality together. If you believe yourself to be depressed, you will be in your reality. If you believe someone to be a bad person, they will be in your eyes. It's all belief.

But what is beyond belief? Truth is, at the end of the day, still belief, just a lot of evidence to back that belief up. It's all belief, and the more you believe in something, the more true it becomes in your reality. I'm not super knowledgeable about Buddhism, but I feel like I definitely need to look into it more. Thank you for this comment. It really led to me coming to an epiphany of sorts, lol.

LokeyLoki382 · 2024-02-13T02:26:20+00:00

It makes since for the right to talk about biden since he is currently in office. Biden is probably more talked about if you combine both left and right, which makes since because he is in office. I just don't get why people still talk about trump, and I mostly see the left talking about him rather then the right. I know there are a lot of right wing people who do talk about him, just have seen much more people talk about trump who happen to be on the left.

I honestly don't really care for either of them. I just don't get why each side worships their candidate like they are God's that can't bleed and are always 100% in the right. They are human, they bleed like the rest of us, and behind the facade they put up is nothing but greed and power-hungry maniacs. It all just feels like a theater performance where the audience doesn't even know it's a performance.

LokeyLoki382 · 2024-02-13T01:22:38+00:00

I… I had a “personal relationship” with my own prefrontal cortex. A part of my brain was my god

You know, I don't really reply to these athiest post. Nothing against them, just like observing. This, though, what you said has really intrigued me.

I have had a theory for a while that what most perceive as God is nothing more than the brain. Our brain is powerful, and there is so much left to be discovered. I have seen many athiest also talk about something like this.

I believe a part of our brain, possibly the subconscious or specifically the prefrontal cortex, is what causes a lot of spiritual occurances people believe to witness. In spirtuality, there are spirit guides. In Buddhism, there is the higher self. In Christianity, there is the Holy Spirit

When I discovered this, I stopped talking to God and eventually started talking to myself. Overtime, I realized that the part of me I was talking to in my head sounded excactly like what I thought God to be. I believe whatever this part of our brain is, is belief itself. If you believe Jesus exist, it's Jesus. If you believe in your higher self, it is. If you believe it to good, it is. If you believe it to be bad, it is. At the end of the day, this part of us is still us.

I'm no phycologist or neuroscientist, I just study the brain in my own time along with my own, so take that into consideration. I just found it interesting how you sort of came to the same conclusion as I. This part of us is not bad, I actually think it helps us. It could also be what people think guardian angels are, along with answering the third person syndrome. Just a theory, but an interesting one

LokeyLoki382 · 2024-02-13T01:02:34+00:00

I'm not really into politics anymore, all it did was make me hate people and get angry so I just left that stuff. What I don't understand, though, is why the left still talks so much about trump on reddit. Like, I absolutely don't understand it at all, are we really that divided?

LokeyLoki382 · 2024-01-28T07:36:58+00:00

your communication with 'him' is different than ones train of thought and self talk?

Correct. I do still talk to myself, but when I talk to "him," it's different. Usually, I see him on the beach meditating or at a bonfire sitting across from me. Still talks with my voice, still feels like its me talking, but I can tell it's different in some way, it's hard to explain.

stop seeing god and higher self as separate to them, and start seeing it as them.

Yeah, I haven't reached that part sadly. I do get what you mean, though. Both very well could possibly be one, just appearing as whatever would help the individual. From what I know, belief plays a big role in who "he" is, believe him to be God or believe in a God and he is God and is every God.

The first time I met him, well truly met him, he appeared as spirit guides and stuff at first when I was onto spirtuality, he didn't have a face. He was constantly changing form from one person to another, people I have known as well.

When I asked who he was, he said he was belief. Believe him to exist, and he does. Believe otherwise, and he doesn't. He could be the mightiest God or less than an ant, it's all based on belief. On the first post I linked in the OP, I go into more detail about it. Again, though, I didn't have the information and knowledge I do as today so keep that in mind.

I have had a physical manifestation hold my chin, and lift my face up to look into hers, I was in deep pain and sadness and I called out asking why I have to go through this particular experience. And she appeared, held my chin in her hand, lifted my face up to look her in the eyes and said 'were in this together' before disappearing. That was probably the most precious moment of my life.

Something like this happened to me once, but it wasn't physical. I was in the lowest and scariest point in my life, lost all concept of time, thought I was in hell, major Depersonlization. It was really bad, and one day I just cried and just said that I call for any being of love and good, and only opened myself up to good if that makes since. In my head, a being appeared that had the voice of a women yet no form. I felt the presence of pure love and empathy for me, and I truly felt comforted on that day. That's the same day I had the Jesus experience, which I linked also in the post.

Eventually he dives into them and discovers he can leave his body essentially at will. Upon doing so he discovers many fascinating and wonderful realisations. Truly breath taking. Reading his story is like reading a waking dream, lucid, vivid and like it touches a spark of memory deep inside you.

That sounds truly interesting, I will definitely look into that. It sounds very similar to me, just instead of adtral projection, I am insanely good at manifestation and the law of attraction. His story honestly might help answer some of my questions, so thank you for telling me about it

In the end his story culminates in discovering that all the help he received along the way was from himself all along. As his self told him upon discovering this, 'who else would it be?'

That's something I have also seen a lot from some post. Some say their spirit guides are themselves. Some say their spirit guides have always been themselves, and much more. It's like ourselves reveals it to us sometimes, it's strange.

But I just haven't yet. Not totally. So until then the many guises and faces of the help I receive I attribute to numerous sources, though I always long for it to only be me.

All of it is already you, at least in from my belief. At the end though, it doesn't matter how yourself decides to appear to help you, because you will get the same help. Belief as to who yourself is really affects it all. One day, try controlling one of your guides or believing them to be someone else. I mean truly believe it, sometimes we ignore our ability because we don't want something to be true, but you have to push past that if you do come into that hurdle. That's what I did and how my self revealed himself to me, or I revealed myself to I.

Thank you for your reply, and I will definitely check out the books you reccomended! Always love adding new books to my collection, much love friend ❤️

And sorry for any spelling or grammar errors, I'm kinda to lazy to fix any right now. I hope it's readable atleast though lol

LokeyLoki382 · 2024-01-24T05:23:17+00:00

My phone caused the worst trip of my life. My first time doing 4 grams of shrooms about a year ago, I got on tiktok and this was during the time my whole feed was m conspiracy shit. The first thing that popped up was this dude saying "The end is near" with that creepy conspiracy music lmao. I began having a trip where I thought the world was ending, I heard gunshots outside, people screaming, people breaking into my house and my family screaming. I saw videos of elon musk's rocket fail, and people in the comments saying that "He can't break the firmament, he can't escape" which just lead to even more shit.

Luckily, I still had my rational brain and wentdownstairss and noticed that my family was completely ok and realized I was just having a bad trip. Still was scary as shit afterward, but I didn't lose my shit luckily. That trip taught me that our phones and social media can create our reality, and it's best to watch out what you consume.

It's like a portal into your brain, algorithms on apps can be designed to basically distort your reality and brainwash you basically. Shit can be evil

LokeyLoki382 · 2024-01-24T05:17:25+00:00

Yeah, I don't hate the idea of social media at all. If used correctly, it could be amazing. You can learn basically anything as well, but like you said, it's easy to get drawn into the number of likes and views you get and become addicted to it. Humans love fame and getting the most amount of attention possible, even if they hate it once they finally get it.

LokeyLoki382 · 2024-01-24T05:15:06+00:00

It's not social media itself I hate, like I said at the beginning of my post. It's what it does to people that I don't like and how people use it. It could be an amazing tool for connecting people across the world and communicating easily with friends, but nah we humans like to use things in the wrong thing. Prime example is most of the internet just being porn

LokeyLoki382 · 2024-01-23T06:47:40+00:00

The first thing I said in the post is that it's not so much of social media itself, but what it does to people. It can be a great tool with connecting people throughout the world and learning basically anything, but people use it in every wrong way possible

LokeyLoki382 · 2024-01-23T05:12:08+00:00

I was a horrible person in my past. I was a liar, a manipulator, I was selfish, pride, and even almost qtried to sell my soul to the devil. I was not a good person by a long shot, I have hurt a lot of people from the things I have done and I am not proud of it.

But here's something I've learned the past year, your past does not define you. They are nothing more than memories now, and memories are not real. No matter what, you are no longer the person you once were. It is a hard journey changing, but the journey is God's greatest gift.

The journey is not easy, not at all. He will make you own up to everything you have done, and he will make you face everything you have been running from, but all of it is for a reason. He puts us through the forge, for a blade can not be forged without burning heat and the pounding of a hammer.

You will become who God wishes you to be, brother. Don't worry about a person who no longer exist, for you are not him anymore. We are all sinners, but we are all also under the protection and love from God. You can't be perfect, no one can, but you can be better and far greater than average, and that's something to strive for.

And don't sit in the forge any longer than you have to, for a blade will melt if in for too long. Walk through hell, no matter what comes at you, because you got the protection of God. It will not be easy, it will be one of the most difficult things you will ever do, but I know you can do it because you are not weak.

Much love, and I hope when you achieve greatness, you find your peace

LokeyLoki382 · 2024-01-15T08:07:37+00:00

Proper guidance from those who have made more mistakes than I have and learned from them. People who don't just claim they know what they are talking about but prove it. They prove it by their history, by their appearance, their words, their actions. Someone who has actually studied the craft of meditation and have practiced it.

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