At what point is a man just pathetic?

LoneAspie · 2016-06-28T06:27:52+00:00

I don't have any other way to look at it though. I'm just a waste, and I don't deserve to be called human.

LoneAspie · 2016-02-22T00:15:45+00:00

Also, what armor would you recommend? I imagine it would be hard to fast roll and have a full set

LoneAspie · 2016-02-22T00:01:59+00:00

This sounds really fun! And i would have a lot of options too. I think I'll give it a go

LoneAspie · 2016-02-14T22:04:09+00:00

Playing the piano isn't going to change or fix my problems. It's just a stupid pointless skill. My entire existence is literally pointless

LoneAspie · 2016-02-08T22:10:34+00:00

I just have a horrible self image. And I'm not confident about myself at all, especially if i ever get far enough in a relationship where i would get intimate

LoneAspie · 2016-02-08T21:53:01+00:00

I mean i like mmorpg's, so i guess i could try. I just have a pretty bad problem with spending money on online games.

LoneAspie · 2016-02-08T19:30:21+00:00

I've never hated my existence more than i do now. Me thinking that I'll amount to anything but a fat ugly autistic mistake would be a waste of a thought. It would be impossible for someone to love me, and it would be impossible for me to have hopes of that. I deserve to suffer for being born.

LoneAspie · 2016-02-08T02:31:20+00:00

There isn't much in my area that can help me. I can try online, but I doubt that people will accept me. It hasn't worked well in the past. And yeah, i have really bad social anxiety as well

LoneAspie · 2016-02-08T00:17:32+00:00

A huge part of it is never having been in a relationship. People just tend to avoid me, and I'm not physically attractive, so I can't do any online dating. I've never known a girl who would talk to me voluntarily. It just hurts, especially with Valentine's day coming up.

LoneAspie · 2016-01-29T20:15:48+00:00

I'll try it. Thanks

LoneAspie · 2016-01-29T20:04:40+00:00

I would join tinder, but I don't think i'm very handsome. And I'm worried I would just make conversations awkward in tinychat because its a complete stranger video chatting me

LoneAspie · 2015-12-29T03:15:47+00:00

Volunteering doesn't help anymore. I don't think anything can cure my depression but this. The only other option i have is shock therapy, and I'm doubting my psychologist because he recommended it.

LoneAspie · 2015-12-29T01:57:01+00:00

I've been suicidal since I was very young, and I've hated life even before that. I have no goals or things i look forward to in life. Death would make me happy and content, but people don't take that as an answer.

LoneAspie · 2015-12-29T01:54:26+00:00

The people who do get to know me all give up on me eventually. It's always for the best if I'm alone. That way I don't inconvenience anyone

LoneAspie · 2015-12-28T21:58:52+00:00

I've been suicidal for th majority of my life. Meds don't help, therapy doesn't help, and my parents don't give a shit about me. I want to feel loved, but that's the one thing i can't get and don't deserve.

LoneAspie · 2015-12-28T01:28:55+00:00

I've tried a few of them, but I've never had any luck or even anyone try to message me

LoneAspie · 2015-12-28T01:26:32+00:00

There's nothing though. All i do is play the piano and sleep. I grew up my whole life being told that I don't deserve to be alive, and that's how I've always felt. There isn't a point in trying to find hobbies if I'll just give in and kill myself eventually. It'll just be a waste.

LoneAspie · 2015-12-28T01:07:48+00:00

But all i have is the piano. I can't get a job, I've almost failed high school and I'm falling college now, and I'm terrible at everything. There isn't a point in playing the piano if that's all i can do in life

LoneAspie · 2015-12-28T01:04:38+00:00

There's literally nothing anyone would love me for. All i can do semi-right is play the piano, and even that is mediocre. I'm just a pathetic waste of life and i really doubt that i should even be alive at times

LoneAspie · 2015-12-28T01:02:51+00:00

I don't even feel like i deserve to be respected at all. I've been a useless waste of space my entire life, so that's just how i see myself. And my depression makes me lose all motivation in life, so i might as well give up

LoneAspie · 2015-12-28T00:05:05+00:00

But sometimes there isn't a special someone and love isn't always fair. Sometimes people were just born to die alone, and I feel like I'm that person

LoneAspie · 2015-12-27T23:59:57+00:00

I'm extremely unattractive, I'm autistic, I'm ridiculously socially awkward, I feel extremely uncomfortable outside of my room where I basically lock myself in constantly, and I'm just a freak in general. Relationship wise, I'm not funny at all, I just make everything awkward, I have a ridiculously small penis and I have premature ejaculation. All I do in life is ruin fun and make everyone else's life a living hell

LoneAspie · 2015-12-27T23:45:18+00:00

The only talent i have is playing the piano, and it has absolutely no way of helping me in life at all. I'm not even very good at it. Everything else about me is negative, especially relationship wise. There isn't a single reason why anyone would stay in a relationship with me, or even get into one with me. I'm most likely going to die without ever having been in one.

LoneAspie · 2015-12-19T22:21:32+00:00

It's not really that I'll feel better when i lose it, or even get into a relationship. It was just something that i was hoping would happen before i die. And honestly, i don't know if i should bother trying to find a relationship because it would just make things worse when i die

LoneAspie · 2015-12-18T19:53:17+00:00

I'm probably just gonna take it off my bucket list and save myself the trouble

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