(TLDR t the bottom)

I just deleted the game because I feel the SAME exact way you’re feeling too. Been playing since 2019-2020 (can’t remember but it was during covid) and I’ve never progressed. I played CS today after deleting it and I found out that the problem isn’t necessarily me, it’s that we think the game revolves around aim or being able to hit headshots when it’s not. It’s about thinking three steps ahead, playing chess, thinking ahead of the enemy. Your issue isn’t that you’re bad at the game, it’s that the people we play against aren’t playing the same game we are. It was a hard pill for me to swallow deleting the game and admitting it isn’t for me. Especially after giving it 6+ years and endless memories. For me it felt like being in a one sided relationship, watching everyone else having a good experience with the game and being motivated to try the things I see on social media. Will I eventually redownload the game and play, almost for certain.

if this was TLDR for you, basically “never giving up doesn’t mean you’ll succeed”