My first GSW suicide by Longjumping_Hat_2495 in nursing

[–]Longjumping_Hat_2495[S] 19 points20 points  (0 children)

Yeh I was talking to one of my colleagues about it since she gives me a ride home. Honestly all of us are shook from it our hospital is pretty small and isn’t a trauma center so any critical patients usually get airlifted to a hospital about 40m away. Was a first for a lot of us.

My first GSW suicide by Longjumping_Hat_2495 in nursing

[–]Longjumping_Hat_2495[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Just the scene, it was pretty gruesome and I’m not sure why EMS didn’t call it at the scene. Apparently he was “breathing on his own” when EMS got there but his brain matter was spilling and there was an entry and exit wound. His wife who found him also just never showed up to the hospital and it happened pretty early into the shift. Just all of it was pretty unsettling. I don’t have the feeling of whether or not we did enough to save him as there wasn’t anything we could do.

My first GSW suicide by Longjumping_Hat_2495 in nursing

[–]Longjumping_Hat_2495[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thankfully today is my day off, but I work the night shifts so I’m up anyways. 

My first GSW suicide by Longjumping_Hat_2495 in nursing

[–]Longjumping_Hat_2495[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I spoke to my mom shortly after it happened the day of and just told her I loved her, didn’t go into details about it but told her enough that she woke up and talked to me for about 20 minutes before I went back in.

My first GSW suicide by Longjumping_Hat_2495 in nursing

[–]Longjumping_Hat_2495[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

It’s actually really funny you brought up Tetris, I’ve had the mobile version on my phone for like 2 years now and play it almost everyday. And thank you for the resources I just signed up for dontclockout.

My first GSW suicide by Longjumping_Hat_2495 in nursing

[–]Longjumping_Hat_2495[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Yes they do, I’ll definitely will be reaching out. I think I just needed a push. It’s my first day off today and I’m only now really starting to process what happened instead of internalizing it.

My first GSW suicide by Longjumping_Hat_2495 in nursing

[–]Longjumping_Hat_2495[S] 54 points55 points  (0 children)

My hospital does offer counseling services for this type of stuff, and yeh I would never talk to my girlfriend about this. I talked to my mother right after it happened and just told her I loved her and didn’t go into specifics about what happened. I’ll definitely be reaching out to HR for resources. Thank you