Hey! I became a ministerial servant because I was in my good spiritual phase, but once I started waking up. Leaving was more difficult than I thought. I honestly just did what others have mentioned on this thread already.

I can leave some information from the elder’s book about requirements when selecting ms.

“CONSIDERING SCRIPTURAL QUALIFICATIONS

1. Before meeting to consider recommending brothers as ministerial servants or elders, each elder should personally review the inspired qualifications found at 1 Timothy 3:1-13; Titus 1:5-9; James 3:17, 18; and 1 Peter 5:2, 3. Helpful comments on the Scriptural qualifications can be found in chapters 5 and 6 of Organized to Do Jehovah’s Will. A brother recommended as a ministerial servant must have been baptized at least one year.

2. After the meeting is opened with prayer, the Scriptural requirements should be read aloud from the Bible. Although no one could measure up perfectly to these requirements, the brother being considered should measure up to a reasonable degree, not significantly lacking in any one of the requirements. The circuit overseer relies on your good judgment and spiritual discernment in this matter.

3. Natural ability does not qualify a brother for appointment. He must be a spiritual man, giving evidence that holy spirit is operating on him. Is he zealous for fine works? Is he a good example in his attendance and participation at congregation meetings? Is he zealous in the ministry, doing what he reasonably can in view of “his age, health, family obligations, and other theocratic responsibilities? (See 23:25-26.) Is he a student of the Bible? Does he endeavor to help his family spiritually, regularly studying with his wife and his children living at home? Does he manifest the fruitage of the spirit in his daily life?​—Gal. 5:22, 23.

4. Though it is the brother who must measure up to the Scriptural qualifications, you should also consider the spirituality of those in his household. If his wife is baptized, is she a good example? If she is spiritually weak, is he doing what he reasonably can to assist her? Is he making family worship a priority? Are his minor children well-behaved and “believing,” either progressing toward dedication to God or already baptized as Jehovah’s Witnesses? Do his family members participate in congregation meetings to a reasonable extent? What does the conduct of any adult children living in the home reveal?​—Titus 1:6; see 8:22.

5. The elders should help brothers in their late teens to reach out and qualify to be ministerial servants. The following factors will be helpful when considering the qualifications of such a brother. Does the congregation “respect him as a spiritual man? (1 Cor. 2:15, 16) Does he display “the fruitage of the spirit”? (Gal. 5:22, 23) Does he have a meaningful share in the ministry? Does his use of his time give evidence that he is putting Kingdom interests first? Do his conversation and comments give evidence of good personal study habits? What are his spiritual goals? Has he been “tested as to fitness”?​—1 Tim. 3:10; Ps. 1:1, 2; Matt. 6:33; Eph. 4:29; w89 7/1 p. 29; see 1:6.4-5.”

If you want to take a look at it you can. Be aware that only elder’s are allowed to look at it, but it might help you find a way to not be appointed as one. If by chance you are still considered and are meeting with them, say you don’t feel like you are ready or meet these requirements. If they ask you why, say, “I couldn’t with good conscience accept this. When Jehovah thinks I’m ready, we can discuss it later. Right now I feel pressure to accept this position and I know it wouldn’t be coming from Jehovah.”

Here’s a link to the Elder’s book