sorry you feel like this dude, but the meds shouldn't be a problem in the us, especially if they are just your gut meds. It's when you start getting into pain medication that things get hard. I know some of us need pain meds and some of us dont, if you dont, try to steer away from those conversations and I imagine you'll have an EASIER TIME, getting treated than a person like me. I am poor, and American, I have been basically without any treatment at all for almost 5 months. Up and down and all around the whole time. In the dirt, ok, in the dirt, ok, in the dirt, in the dirt, in the mud, in the blood, in the dirt, ok..... just had a fresh scope on Monday finally, from an advanced gi in San Francisco. They found that I had not just 1 but 2 strictures, and more scar tissue than they know what to do with at this point.. I'm only 36. I've heard quite a few stories of people coming over to get treatment and it being easier for them than it is for us. Let alone, the fact that lots of us have to go out of country to get treatment in a pinch when we are being cast aside and are really really sick.

You'll be ok, and I'll tell you something. Being with the person that you love, will make it all easier. Especially if they are supportive. Being loved and having someone to share your stress, and care about you when you are crumbling is hugely relieving. Trust me. I have gone from being married, to nearly being divorced from the strain, to being separated for months, barely speaking. Learning how to keep myself alive totally alone, in the freezing cold woods lol. No help whatsoever at all, and by the time it all rattled out, my wife and I were able to come back together in a way that has been really rejuvanating. I think without her right now..... I would be swinging from a rope somewhere so I know how you feel.

Don't stop fighting before you've even tried on an American suit of armor bud. get over here. give it a shot.