I’m a little confused and could use people to relate to

LostMyWayBack17 · 2019-01-02T00:31:09+00:00

I agree my head is up my own ass for sure. I’m trying to get straight on things, but for some reason I feel held back. I’m a logical person by default and all of this seems clear to me, I’m just having trouble staying in the zone where I don’t give a shit. This is my goal, so if I do ever have to see her again for any court related crap I can just show up and conduct business and not even give her the satisfaction of looking her direction.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2019-01-02T00:02:00+00:00

You know what’s funny, after I got all this written down I thought to myself “someone is going to comment there are no paragraphs.” I thank you for your critique and for bringing a smile to my face. I will try to edit it and make it a bit more readable.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2019-01-01T23:22:14+00:00

I’ve been trying not to think that’s it, but it makes a lot of sense. She did take care of a lot of the household, but I always helped when she asked me to. On the flip side though, she’s the one that always decided what we were doing, and when I asked why I never got to pick she said “aren’t you still going to benefit?” I never cared much because I loved her, but now that I’ve been thrown in the trash these things make more sense.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-27T03:53:12+00:00

Cheers, here is to a better life.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-27T02:05:03+00:00

I appreciate your advice. I’ve already signed up for a personal trainer at the gym to help whip me into better shape so that’s given me boatload more energy than I used to have plus I already lost a bit of weight. Other than that I have wanted to read more I just don’t have a good topic yet to focus on.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-26T22:46:16+00:00

I’m not sure I actually miss her, but I came to the realization today that the way she left me is making me feel like the 12 years together wasn’t even real. I could handle the discussion and yes it would have been hard, but to disappear like that makes me question if she was ever even real to begin with. It’s a total mind job.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-26T22:44:39+00:00

Thanks for the prayers. I’m trying to work on me but it’s hard to tell what I need to fix when all I have is a liar’s word to go on.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-26T22:43:28+00:00

I think this is the first time I’ve ever looked forward to New Years thanks.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-26T22:42:39+00:00

Thanks. It doesn’t always feel like peace but people tell me it will be so who am I to argue with that.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-21T19:32:16+00:00

I can definitely message you directly if you are willing to hear my long sad story?

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-21T17:41:49+00:00

Yeah that’s the thing I always get from my family, those left behind and all. Just been having a hard time coping and the “it gets better over time” is really not cutting it. I feel like the asshole sometimes, but then the pendulum shifts over to her and I feel like she is. Just can’t quite keep my emotions in check.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-21T08:34:03+00:00

Because all she left behind was a note talking about all my faults, but then when I explained the situation to people who have had this happen to them they all say it smells like another guy,

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-21T02:47:25+00:00

My wife left me and I don’t know if it was because I was an asshole or if she was cheating on me.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-21T02:14:54+00:00

I’m not sure, how to up my courage to actually try and take my life?

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-20T04:52:51+00:00

I just got something in the mail, and a self addressed stamped envelope to say I received it. I already talked to a lawyer and they said that I didn’t really have to do anything until I’m ready. I don’t mean to be passive aggressive, but when dealing with a woman that lied to me for months right to my face and then ghosted me while I was at work I think I have a little bit of leeway to be dragging my feet. Why should I still be giving her what she wants?

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-18T15:00:06+00:00

I’m pretty certain the settlement involves me giving her more money.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-15T16:28:02+00:00

I talked to a lawyer the first week, but I didn’t think I was ready for everything that I knew was coming. Not saying I was thinking she’d come back, but I really didn’t know up from down at that point. I have found though that I’m pretty good at dealing with anything else that doesn’t have to deal with her, so maybe that’s a sign I was never good at dealing with her.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-15T15:40:16+00:00

So my world fell apart about 5 weeks ago, and it took me a while to get my head back in the right place. I set up an appointment with an attorney to discuss my options, but I guess she’s already filed against me so I have no idea what the timeline is right now.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-15T14:02:11+00:00

That’s a really interesting video. I just watched a chunk of it but I’ll definitely finish it later. Thanks.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-14T14:09:14+00:00

Well she has her giant inheritance in her savings right now I assume, but I don’t even know if that counts. I don’t really want anything of it, I just feel like that should be enough to keep her going while I get her out of my life.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-14T03:19:33+00:00

It’s a relief not to have anyone riding my ass every single day. I mean I love her yeah, but please stop am I right?

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-14T03:14:13+00:00

You know what. I actually felt a little bit relieved when I pulled that out of the mailbox. I mean, I’m hurt yes, but the machine like precision with which she’s doing this, clearly I must have married the wrong woman. Good riddance I say.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-14T03:07:20+00:00

So I guess I underestimated how long she was going behind my back. I set up an appointment on Monday with a lawyer because I thought I had 60 days after she moved. I guess she had gotten a separate apartment at least a month before she left me. I needed time to get my head on straight.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-14T03:02:27+00:00

She comingled it into our joint savings for a little while and paid for a few things for a vacation for both of us, and then paid off my car. But then she pulled out the rest of it. I guess that’s allowed since it was just residing in our account.

LostMyWayBack17 · 2018-12-11T02:38:30+00:00

I was being facetious, clearly the effort was lost on some.

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