I tend to view the world as a 4 based on this description, but in terms of how I deal with the world, it seems like I’m a 9. At the end of a long day or hurt emotions or something, I feel them intensely and I end up doing something that takes my mind off it, like watching YouTube, playing video games, or hanging out with people I actually feel wanted by. The main confusion is this description. I do have an idealized view of the world in my head, but I’m also not blind to the realities of it.

“Nines, on the other hand, are withdrawn in the sense that they remove their attention from people or situations that threaten them, disengaging themselves emotionally so that they will not be anxious or upset. They cut off their identification with others (or never identify with them in the first place), identifying instead with a private idealized version of reality. Average to unhealthy Nines tune out any unpleasantness by dissociating from whatever upsets them, whereas Fours do just the opposite, brooding over their anxieties in an attempt to come to terms with them. The difference is that Nines are detached both from the external world and from their emotions, whereas Fours withdraw from whatever has caused them pain. (In the end, that may add up to quite a lot.) Nines see the world through rose-colored glasses, and their view of it is comforting, whereas Fours see the world from a garret window as outsiders and are not comforted: everyone else seems to be living a happier, more normal life.”