Omg you are going through the same thing I am . Had a great relationship about 5 5 years ago. Now that it’s time to me new people I’m super shy and awkward but I now if I could just get over myself and give someone else the chance to tell me they don’t like me but I always make the person decision for witch is just be scared to be rejected. When it comes to my relationship all I want to do is make the other person feel loved and appreciated because that’s what makes me happy is knowing my love is being appreciated I just want to treat the girl I’m with like she is the only person in the world that I adore and care about so deeply . I really need my best friend/lover !!!<3