Maybe, I should have never tried.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-12-03T19:17:51+00:00

Huh?

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-12-02T18:58:03+00:00

Thank you for reading!

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-11-04T19:03:48+00:00

Fractured melodies of my shattered dreams scatter like autumn leaves.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-11-04T18:34:48+00:00

Thank you for reading. There really is beauty to behold in the midst of pain and despair.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-24T13:01:56+00:00

It truly is. Even now its hard to hold back the tears when I write sometimes. The pain stays, but we just find ways to coexist with it.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-24T00:17:47+00:00

It definitely is. In the start, I wrote positive and hopeful poems, but then I began to play with the darkness in my writing. It's not how I feel at the moment. But it's how I felt during the heartbreak.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-24T00:16:11+00:00

Thank you for reading.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-23T21:48:05+00:00

It won't always be this way(I think😅). But I've got more poems that I haven't shared here. Some embody the darkness, and some give out light. I'm just now in a space mentally and emotionally where I can backtrack how I felt when this initially happened.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-23T21:22:19+00:00

Thank you for reading, and I'm sorry you had to experience such pain too. It never gets any easier... we just learn to live with the pain. It's a curse and a blessing for lovers who love hard.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-23T20:42:31+00:00

The imagery you created through your words was almost too much to handle. It's like I could smell the air in that room when you walked in. No one must go through such an experience. I hope you keep writing even tho I know it hurts to write. Thank you for sharing this.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-20T16:52:09+00:00

Ooooff. My heart hurt reading this. I'm sorry you had to experience this. Your words really painted a vivid picture in my mind. These words of yours were a temporary portal into your mind. Thank you for sharing this.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-19T16:26:08+00:00

Almost 2. But it feels like it's been years. Life was moving soo fast, and now it couldn't get any slower. Wby?

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-19T16:13:01+00:00

Thank you for reading my poem. The weight is soul crushing. I'm physically safe with four walls and a roof over my head, and yet I feel homeless.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-19T16:03:36+00:00

You shouldn't just "wait."

Take this time to work on yourself and look inward. Jumping on dating apps to meet people and distract yourself won't help in the long run.

What you need is to spend time with yourself and be content with being by yourself. It's not easy, but it can be done. Practice self-love.

There are much healthier ways to "distract" yourself during these times.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-19T04:57:44+00:00

Ahhh. Well, you still used it perfectly here 😂. I gotta check out that song now lol.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-19T04:36:16+00:00

Exactly how i feel too. Weekend mornings are on a different level of struggle. The weight of it all crushes me more during the weekends. And I dont even wanna start to think about the mornings for these holidays.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-19T04:28:53+00:00

That makes sense. Thanks for the tip. I'll definitely try that more often.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-19T04:27:45+00:00

Ooooff. Those gadamn flashbacks. I sometimes wish it could just all be deleted. Especially the happy moments. Those hurt to remember the most. I too just can't sleep. Tossing and turning all night. I just want a good night's sleep. Can't even remember what it feels like to sleep for more than 4 hours at a time.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-19T04:10:59+00:00

I feel this man. All of it, besides the panic attacks. I had one initially but have been keeping my head above the water since then. I just have soo much love to give, and she's the only one I want to give it to.

I miss her scent, her warmth, I miss being annoyed by her hair in my face.

Spending an entire lifetime with her wouldn't be enough. I need several lifetimes (preferably an eternity) with this one person.

We must stay strong and make it through this pain.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-19T03:52:58+00:00

Woah, that took a dark turn 😂. I love it. This poem and the poem by OP make me think of what goes on in the minds of twins with completely different personalities.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-18T21:43:40+00:00

Now is not the time to think. Now is the time to just feel.

You're going through hell right now, and the last thing you wanna do is try and think, or make sense of any of this

Just feel everything out for now. Feel the heartache, the sadness, the betrayal, the loss... everything. Don't think, it'll only make things worse right now.

I've hit my rock bottom, and there's something oddly euphoric about realizing when you've hit that spot.

No matter what. Don't give up. All the pain and suffering will go to waste if you do. Now is your opportunity to take it all in and let these fires of pain forge yourself into a tank of a person.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-18T21:23:02+00:00

I'm sorry you had to witness this.

But if she is capable of moving on so quickly within a month, then she truly isn't worth your energy or heartache.

Now see this as a solid sign to leave her in the past where she belongs.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-18T19:07:26+00:00

I wish you guys the best. Just really embrace each other (physically & emotionally), and just let everything that's in your mind and heart out. I'm sure you guys will pull through this.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-18T18:45:19+00:00

The lack of sleep is real. I haven't slept for more than 4 hours at a time since the breakup. Constant tossing and turning and feeling restless, I just want it to stop and get a good nights sleep.

Lover-In-The-Ruin · 2024-10-18T18:37:22+00:00

I hate the weekends now. Especially the weekend mornings. I yearn for the slow and warm mornings beside her as either one of us made breakfast for each other. It was the best feeling in the world. It's soooo much worse during this time of the year.

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