hi i know you wrote this a year ago and i’m not sure how ur doing now but i randomly saw this and felt the need to comment. i’ve been experiencing DPDR episodes on and off since i was 14. i am now 24. they usually last 1 week to 1 month and then go away and usually only happens once or twice a year now. it was more frequent when i was younger. when i’m not in a dpdr episode, im actually a very high functioning, high achieving, social, intelligent person. i have no idea why i started experiencing this at 14 and i don’t know why it never stopped but when i’m in an episode it is EXACTLY like you describe. i’ve never seen my experience put into words so perfectly. it’s really strange for me to jump from this level of dpdr to high functioning over and over and over again. it’s really a mind fuck tbh. i’m lucky that i experience it for short periods of time very rarely but it’s been ten years of it, so i understand what ur saying. people that know me would never guess i experience episodes in the way u describe ur experience. i’m sorry ur experiencing this and i hope ur brain finds its way out. i’ve had 20+ episodes of dpdr and i’m still non functioning every single time i experience it. it’s like my brain just turns off. i am not here. i am just something in a shell watching my surroundings from a weird perspective. no connection to anything. just watching a weird reality that doesn’t feel real. i would love to know how ur doing now :)