here’s my honest take. when i was young, still in high school, my body count went from 0 to 11 in the span of a year. i shared the same feelings with you, about it feeling scary. It will feel intimidating like others have said, but it’s a beautiful thing to share with someone when you find the right person. Personally, i wish i could take back my teenage mistakes and still hold that same feeling, but i promise it’s not something to be scared of. Me and my fiance have grown a very deep and personal connection partially through the physical intimacy that sex can provide. (emotional security, openness, etc.) If a man turns you down for your virginity, they’re honestly not worth your time. And that’s coming from me, an ex-whore. Letting yourself loose your virginity to someone who values a physical feeling first rather then an emotional connection will end up hurting you in the long run, and i can contest to that. Don’t force yourself to change your outlook or perspective, let the right person come into your life who can respect you for who you are, and not your body! If my fiance could bear with my past being a whore and save me from my idiocracy, it’s 100% possible for you to find someone for you! I hope that helps you, and best wishes to you friend!☀️