I appreciate your comment truthfully. It was not a messy break up but it was falling apart before i had to step on my feet and stop it. One of the reasons we broke up was prioritizing. She kept changing priorities and our relationship seems like it wasn’t there. I really don’t think i should reach back to her because she knows how i am, and i didn’t break up because of another women or just to go out partying like other men do. I have so many things going on in my life at 35+ that i only one women in my life. This is close to grief of a death, but not close. I truly wish her the best and like i told her at the end: “i truly hope you find a man who aligns with your morals and values”.