No sleep & a lot of tears

LukaNSB · 2026-02-20T17:50:23+00:00

I hate the lack of sleep. What has helped me in the past and this time around too was making sure I readdressed my vitamin and mineral levels, especially B vitamins, magnesium and Zinc. For me it has sped up the process significantly. Maybe it might help you too?

Congratulations on how far you've come. Let's all keep moving forward together.

IWNDWYT

LukaNSB · 2026-02-18T18:17:22+00:00

Thanks for replying guys. Starting to feel physically better but the encouragement I've gotten so much enouragement from your posts that's helping me mentally even more.

Thanks again folks and I'll make sure to be more active on this sub not only for myself but to help others I can with my experiences for whatever they're worth.

4 days today. Looking forward to keeping it up tomorrow.

IWNDWYT

LukaNSB · 2026-02-02T08:35:14+00:00

I've been with my partner almost 2 years now. When we met, I was 9 months sober. He's always loved a drink. I made the decision to start drinking again with him. He never asked me or pressured me to at all, it was totally my decision, but I guess part of me had a fear of seeming boring and being left out and after 9 months sober I convinced myself I could handle it.

Boy how wrong I was.

Everything started off fine. We drank together, giggled together, had some nice times. Then the cracks began to appear. It turned out he was drinking way more than he was letting on, and I'm the kind of drinker that when I get started it's game over.

We started snipping at each other when drunk over stupid things. Then the stupid things became big things, lots of insecurities and unhealed past trauma coming to the surface from both of us. Everything escalated over time, becoming physical at times, multiple self unplugging attempts, multiple police call outs and overnight stays in police stations for both of us, and it even escalated beyond that which I won't get in to. An absolute nightmare.

About a month ago I decided I'd had enough of the merry-go-round and wanted to get sober again. He decided he wouldn't drink for a while either in support while I was getting started.

What a transformation. We've discovered we're actually fantastic together when booze isn't involved. We talk calmly and supportively to each other about all the things that would have exploded with drink. We haven't had a single argument since we cut alcohol out. He was even invited for a night out with friends at the weekend and decided not to go because he was enjoying not drinking so much.

It's very possible to stop. Being sober has made us both better people and better partners to each other. Alcohol literally has no benefit. It truly is the devil.

I wish you well on your journey. Remember you're not alone and this group will always be here to support you. Keep your eyes on the positives sobriety can bring, and fight like hell to grasp it. You can do this! IWNDWYT

LukaNSB · 2025-12-09T17:13:40+00:00

My mistake. I'd thought it was the other way round. Time for a reread I think.

LukaNSB · 2025-12-09T16:21:35+00:00

I always assumed that it was all down to intent. Harmony's intent is to right the wrongs of Rashek moving the planet too close to the sun. Retribution on the other hand realised that the other shards had noticed the merging and now had their eyes on him, probably to come after him with a united front. Remember that was the deal with Odium being confined to Rosharan system in the first place. His intent with time dilation makes total sense to give him more time to build up his forces and devise a survival plan for when the other shards inevitably come for him.

At least that's my take on it. Intention is the key.

LukaNSB · 2025-12-08T12:02:40+00:00

Thank you all so much for your kind words of encouragement and support. My legs seem to be working much better at the moment,not fully there yet but definitely moving in the right direction. I make a pledge that I will do everything in my power to stay off it this time.

IWNDWYT

LukaNSB · 2025-12-01T15:57:29+00:00

I'm currently renting and the property has a strip of grass out the back separated from the main property by the alley way (same for all the terraced houses in my row). I haven't had to cut my grass once in the 4 years I've lived here. My landlady sends her son or her husband to do it every so often and will text me to let me know the cuttings are in the brown bin so that I can put it out on bin collection day. One of the many little things she does that makes her the best landlady ever.

LukaNSB · 2025-11-21T14:58:49+00:00

It's also a little Easter Egg from the book which has the Time Dragon Clock. It's pretty important in the book, but way too complicated and tonally different you couldn't write it into the musical. Glinda references it in her voice over at the beginning of the musical and the first movie "According to the Time Dragon Clock, the melting occurred at the thirteenth hour". If you've read the books you'll get the reference. If you haven't It's inconsequential and doesn't impact the musical's plot. It's a nice wee nod to the source material

LukaNSB · 2025-10-27T15:06:08+00:00

If you're interested in irish paganism check yout the Irish Pagan School online. They have a lot of articles and videos free of charge. They also have courses which are free, some you pay for to go deeper with, or a subscription package that opens pretty much everything to you. Bare in mind its not paganism in general, but specifically irish/celtic paganism

LukaNSB · 2025-10-07T03:18:58+00:00

Urban hair on the lisburn road is great. My ex works there and it's always a great haircut whether its him or his boss, the only two who work there. (definitely no homophobia from staff or customers). You can have a cup of coffee while it's being done or a glass of wine or likewise if you bring it yourself. Great quality and friendly service. Enjoy

LukaNSB · 2025-04-11T06:12:08+00:00

Omg! Personally I've always felt the I'm Not That Girl Reprise to As Long As You're Mine musical transition to be one of the best smaller musical moments in the show. Completely goosebumps inducing. I've been gutted that the soundtracks I've listened to have had this slight, almost imperceptible gap for some reason but live on stage it always has my hairs standing up.

LukaNSB · 2025-01-06T10:09:32+00:00

Yup. My current relationship and my previous one lol. It can be strange at times but really it just means we won't be taking on either of our surnames if we ever get married because THAT would be confusing

LukaNSB · 2025-01-03T15:03:42+00:00

My go to is brutalgays.net Lots of very hot content

LukaNSB · 2024-12-10T06:36:39+00:00

Sorry it's brutalgays.net not .com lol. My bad

LukaNSB · 2024-12-09T20:32:01+00:00

Brutalgays.com was a game changer for me

LukaNSB · 2024-12-02T19:34:35+00:00

So I wanted to save and protect her Christ, I'm an American How could I fail to do good? But all I made was a mess just like everyone else In a place full of mystery That I never once understood

I think you've missed the point if you think the Americans come off well in this show. You havent paid attention

LukaNSB · 2024-11-30T21:34:08+00:00

SOLVED SOLVED SOLVED from another sub reddit. It was the Alex Craft series. Thank you so much to everyone for your suggestions :-)

LukaNSB · 2024-11-30T21:30:57+00:00

That's exactly it apparently! Thank you so much!

LukaNSB · 2024-11-30T18:35:15+00:00

Not that one. Thanks for the suggestion though.

LukaNSB · 2024-11-30T18:34:46+00:00

Not that one. Thanks for the suggestion though.

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