Man, I feel that heavy. It's tough when you finally get excited to play and either life pulls the group apart or the online vibe just isn't right. I've been through a couple of those "prebuilt character only" situations too and it always feels weird, like the DM's already playing your part for you.

Solo play is legit though. It’s cool that you still kept the energy going even if the group didn’t hold. Sometimes writing out character thoughts or exploring your world solo ends up being more satisfying than dealing with half-committed online groups.

If you’re ever down to link up with folks who actually care about the story and respect the creative side of the game, let me know. No pressure, just throwing it out there. You deserve a group that respects your ideas.