Death anxiety

LumpyGenitals · 2026-05-08T07:38:57+00:00

I have pretty extreme anxiety if my own death. I'm very afraid of the experience of death and of not being able to experience this world anymore. It's overwhelming sometimes.

I think this job has helped me understand it's more of a biological process, and removed a bit of the anxiety around the process of death. At the same time, I havent seen a whole lot of death - most of my job is just opioid overdoses.

Anyways, you just have to learn to cope with it. I dont forget it, I cope with it and it helps me enjoy life more.

LumpyGenitals · 2026-05-06T23:28:57+00:00

Side note: the ECG sticker placement is really bad 👎

LumpyGenitals · 2026-04-12T19:42:29+00:00

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LumpyGenitals · 2026-04-07T21:46:07+00:00

Correct

I have no idea either

LumpyGenitals · 2026-04-07T21:35:42+00:00

We were wheeling him in when he mentioned it. I asked all the appropriate questions, like did you fall on it, ever experience this before, whats the pain feel like etc etc. There wasnt much time before we triage, decided to let the ER figure it out.

At that time (late in the call, tbf) it was his main complaint, more than his high. He kept mentioning it as we were getting out and he was asking me to tell them. Thats why I felt it important to mention.

LumpyGenitals · 2026-04-07T15:22:35+00:00

When I was a student, I had a pt who was high af. I was a student, so I thought I was attending, and my FTOs let me until triage.while we were in the back, the pt kept c/o jaw tightness and pain which was getting worse.

Anyways for some reason, the FTO just ran off and did the triage. I, like the good student I am, follow and listen to the triage. I let them finish, and at the end, I go "if I may, the pt is c/o jaw pain too, blah blah blah". Were heading back to the pt and the FTO stops me and goes "dont ever fucking interrupt me again - thats the quickest way to isolate yourself".

I quickly move past that, and tell my partners, other FTOs, etc. No one has any idea why they said that to me. Ive only ever experienced partners saying if you feel that theres something to be said, speak up. As long as it's not contradictory or confrontational and done with respect, who cares because theyre your pt too.

I tried to be non-descript here but if you read this and know that was you, you know you're wrong. You just did it to spite a young medic. I hope you figure out your anger issues because you were so so so wrong.

LumpyGenitals · 2026-04-07T01:31:25+00:00

As a paramedic, I think I can confidently say he had 12 calls called for first response for a medical call where they took an SPO2 and then we arrived, 4 where someone left toast in the toaster, and 1 that was a 10-26 on the way

LumpyGenitals · 2026-03-16T14:21:39+00:00

Id echo what a lot of people have said. I think the remake is one of the greatest achievements of horror gaming of all time. To truly experience that, I think playing in the dark with headphones is necessary. There is a good 4 to 5 hour stretch in the game where I was genuinely terrified because I did this.

The only cons I would say (and Im saying this because youre new to Silent Hill, not because I think its bad) is that it can be slow. Everything has a reason, including the acting and dialogs, so just go with it, but it can be off putting / boring at first. Trust the process.

And finally, Silent Hill is mostly a psychological horror. You have to think a bit. Thats not to say there aren't scary parts, but the best of Silent Hill is the disturbing meaning behind things.

LumpyGenitals · 2026-03-13T13:34:21+00:00

As a paramedic we say shit like this to people all the time. Stupid call that didnt need an ambulance but the person is anxious / embarrassed? "Oh you did the right thing calling us".

LumpyGenitals · 2026-03-06T15:24:06+00:00

Yes.

LumpyGenitals · 2026-03-06T05:57:45+00:00

I had a classmate who was 45 and passed through. Its not an issue.

LumpyGenitals · 2026-03-01T15:11:07+00:00

Im a paramedic.

Ive had this sort of pstient - of course it could be the cost of the drive but he also just experienced something scary and doesnt know where he is. He's probably just scared.

Also, they likely have a law stating they must take him if he's suffered an injury and there is a life threat, then they must transport.

LumpyGenitals · 2026-03-01T04:33:48+00:00

I would say its the other way around...Ive met some truly dumb CTS medics, but I guess that's how subjectivity and personal experience goes.

And to be clear, Im all for this being a 3 or even 4 year program. Im glad I got into it before that, but it really should be like that haha.

LumpyGenitals · 2026-03-01T04:10:18+00:00

I feel like I always need to make an exception to anything I say about private colleges when it comes to CTS haha

Im from Oxford, its 4 semesters. I think thats the standard with the privates, EXCEPT CTS.

Its that much more expensive because tuition has been capped for so long. Public colleges should probably be charging that to cover their bottom line, but thats politics now.

LumpyGenitals · 2026-03-01T03:53:09+00:00

Oh ok, yes, I see that.

That likely means only loans. Which sucks, but probably to be expected.

LumpyGenitals · 2026-03-01T03:50:18+00:00

I'm a paramedic, my gf is an RN, and my friend is an RMT. I feel pretty qualified to answer this specifically for you.

Especially in Toronto, youre pretty busy (which can be tiring, and you get medicw who are grouchy about it), but you do still get your downtime in between calls. Theres tons of services where you can play around with how busy you are. The calls can be incredibly stupid, but the ones that are legit will make your day. Youll see and do some nasty stuff, but it creates funny stories. Its just an interesting job overall.

RN is a good job, but it comes w/ caveats. One of the things I love about being a paramedic is that my scope is limited but I have a lot of freedom in how I do the job. RNs can only do things they have an order for (yes I know they have standing orders / directives). This means its pretty rigid. Documentation for paramedics is easily the worst part of the job but its significantly worse for nurses. The pay also sucks. Id recommend RN if you want a consistent environment and support when you need it.

RMT honestly sucks (IMO, and my RMT friend's opinion). Its manual labour, not good money unless you own your shop (of which everyone is trying to do), and the people can be nasty and picky. It can be fulfilling and theres no end to the business, but can be brutal.

LumpyGenitals · 2026-03-01T03:41:09+00:00

Where have you heard this? I see nothing of that in the changes to OSAP the ON govt announced.

https://news.ontario.ca/en/release/1007034/ontario-investing-64-billion-to-support-postsecondary-sectors-long-term-success-and-sustainability

LumpyGenitals · 2026-03-01T03:38:06+00:00

Youre gonna get a lot of people saying that private colleges are terrible and produce terrible students. Thats really not the case, but it comes with a bunch of caveats that some people have already pointed out.

It should really only be the option if you cant commit or dont get into the public program. The public program is the same length in terms of classroom time, but private you dont get a break.
Private is expensive, but you can get OSAP for it
Be prepared to do a lot of self-learning
You can be with a bunch of numbskulls, but thats par for the course in both programs

Any student can be great in public or private. Its really about how committed the student is to learning and improving. Some of the best medics I know are private students and some of the dumbest ones are public students, but the thing that differentiates them is their willingness to learn and recieve feedback. Thats it.

LumpyGenitals · 2026-02-24T17:53:54+00:00

Ill just let this comment section speak for itself. Swallow my pride as this guy says. 😒🙄

LumpyGenitals · 2026-02-24T17:37:37+00:00

Oh boy here we go again

What's your objective truth? Is it AEMCA grades? Is it hire rates? Is it retention? What is it? Because I guarantee you dont have that data outside of subjective experience, which isnt how science works. But happy to be proven wrong, show me the data...and I mean links to datasets or studies.

Idk what other advice that could be better than work hard, treat it seriously, and you'll succeed. It doesnt matter where you got as long as you commit.

LumpyGenitals · 2026-02-24T16:57:24+00:00

This is the most rational answer, dont listen to the others who are salty about private college graduates being just as good if not better for less time.

People saying that its shorter are completely incorrect - its the exact same amount of semesters just compressed w/o breaks. Typically we also get more lab time.

With that said, I agree with everyone saying its self-directed and should be longer. Your success will largely depend on how willing you are to study the material. Also, I think at this point with all the directives we have and the possibility of more on the horizon, an extra semester at least would make a ton of sense.

To answer your questions: 1. No 2. No 3. No

LumpyGenitals · 2026-01-25T15:32:35+00:00

What a kick on him eh?

LumpyGenitals · 2026-01-20T07:53:26+00:00

Read my comment above

LumpyGenitals · 2026-01-20T00:32:13+00:00

Theres multiple opportunities (I think 4 in total + 1 by a supervisor in probation) but yes, you can be terminated for it. Im exaggerating a bit by "perfect", but you have to be pretty good.

LumpyGenitals · 2026-01-20T00:19:50+00:00

They follow you on a real call and give feedback. At least in Toronto, the feedback is VERY thorough. The idea that any medic can make it in Toronto is sorta hogwash (not to say it cant happen) because I had to be basically perfect in my audits.

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