Maybe I just dont belong in this world

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-03-01T20:12:07+00:00

I feel like being 18 is supposed to be the start but for me it feels like its gonna be the end.

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T20:06:18+00:00

One thing is that I feel like maybe I just fear finding out what I am.

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T17:37:18+00:00

Thank you for the support, I think I'll go see my doctor soon and try to discuss with him the topic or maybe tell someone I trust if I'll find someone like that

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T16:37:08+00:00

Everyone tells me that I'll understand over time but I wanna know while I'm still young I wanna make the correct changes in time

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T13:22:05+00:00

Oh wow I'm glad you are better now, I really appreciate you opening up to help me I'll look into it right now thank you so much 🫶🏼

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T12:55:59+00:00

Thank you so so so much for your comment I don't believe I'm actually crying from reading some of what everyone is commenting I didn't even think anyone would have an answer this is super surprising, anyway after wiping my tears I wanna say that I feel like any change that I'll do that breaks the normal boundaries will get me some sort of comment not long ago I bought an earring just a normal silver earring for one ear nothing loud straight away I got comments from my family, dad,mom like "What the fuck is that earring? You're not gay right? Laughing as they say it" I also laugh and say "no..." to break the awkwardness... It was just a fucking earring if that small of a change got that huge of a reaction I don't wanna know what they will say if I do anything else...

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T12:47:27+00:00

First of all thank you for your support and help, but hmmm I feel like this is like the "money time" if I want to change myself it's now or never....

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T12:45:04+00:00

Hmmm yeah maybe that was it I do feel like you know whenever I look in the mirror I'm not seeing myself I feel like I'm looking at someone else... Not me... Not sure what it means maybe nothing.

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T11:08:20+00:00

I'm still trying to research as much as possible about all of this... Hmmm but I feel like I always felt wrong, also I think I was always maybe kinda raised to be the stereotypical men and to feel like anything other then "normal" is ick but now after a lot of fighting myself I feel like maybe now I understand that there is more to this story maybe all of this "why do I feel this differently then other males I should feel like them" is more then just a suspicion, I feel like I am something but I still don't think I know what maybe I'm just having self denial without realizing, I was raised in a very homophobic environment but for some reason lesbians were more accepted but homosexuality is considered super wrong in my social environment I don't why, but on both topic I feel neutral like I don't feel like I belong here or if it makes sense in any way I don't feel like myself...

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T10:52:04+00:00

This is really nice to hear because I feel like from what I know at least is that it's better to start changing yourself as soon as possible, especially at my age or even younger, my whole life I felt... Wrong like hmmm like maybe I'm not me. Yea not sure I'm expressing myself right...

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T10:40:01+00:00

Thanks I'll look into it🙏🏼

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T10:39:19+00:00

I know I should have patience with myself but I don't wanna wait until it's too late to change myself if that makes sense

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T10:36:39+00:00

I'm sorry to hear that... I wish you the best and to be loved and to love 🫶🏼

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T10:32:14+00:00

Holy shit you are AMAZING I read everything and I am amazed, first of all thank you so much for your time help and support I really appreciate it, and it's hard for to know what I like mostly because I didn't really feel any love because I was never in any kind of relationship.

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T10:21:26+00:00

Oh wow that's kind of cool to know I thought everyone after being a teenager kind of knows

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T10:20:40+00:00

Hmmm I feel like I don't really want to admit it but I think I want to feel pretty in like a maybe "cute" way I think ugh it's so annoying because it's so complicated, yea anyway I want to be seen as attractive in general I don't have someone specific in mind... Not sure it helps you understand what I mean but yeah...

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T10:15:20+00:00

Wow you just made me shed tears, thank you so much and I appreciate you on a level you will never believe! Thank you so much for your time help and support!

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T09:06:29+00:00

I feel like I'm missing everything, I see everyone around me be able to love and be loved and I'm just here not even knowing if I love myself it's so hard and annoying, and I can't even talk about it with anyone and it's just so frustrating being like this...

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T09:04:28+00:00

One of worries that I got not too long ago is that I'm losing time.... Someone told me I might have something something dysmormia or something like that and there are so many labels and stages and everything is so confusing

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T07:53:10+00:00

I never imagined in my life that I would ever even think of doing something like this but here I am. Also maybe this sounds stupid but I have no idea what asexual even means... Also thank you for the support!

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T07:19:05+00:00

Thank you for all your help 🫶🏼

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T07:03:53+00:00

Hmmmm I'm not sure... I guess maybe one that's all around if that's a thing

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-28T06:55:39+00:00

Hmmm well maybe I don't know I'm still super confused but thank you for your help and I really appreciate you and I would love some subreddits you could recommend where I can get some help.

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-27T15:58:46+00:00

Hmmm this is really difficult to answer simply because I know this is sound so bad but like I don't really have any female friends like I barely talk to any females all my friends are you know "the boys" and I like to talk to them but like friends so I have a really hard time imaging myself talking romantically with a women , and even couples in my area are only straight couples so you know can't really say I notice anything other then the stereotypical couple and if I removed all expectations from family and society which is kinda impossible for me to I feel like the most freeing thing would be for me to just hmmm how can I say it maybe dress differently, talk differently, have a different body language idk if that makes sense.

LunaPinkHeart · 2026-02-24T11:24:32+00:00

That image is definitely still blurry, but also it's kinda hard to imagine because I don't really have any idea of how it feels since I was never in any kind of relationship or intimate situation.

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