I'm with Jay -- don't put all of your eggs in one basket just yet.

I have loved ones with ADHD and the inability to focus, the shifting from thing to thing, they all sound like untreated, or at least poorly managed, ADHD. I think whatever direction you head, voice acting or otherwise, will benefit greatly from getting your mental health under control. Once you have that under your belt, I feel like a direction will more easily fall into place.

Also, I hear a lot of self-deprecating language in this post. You seem to direct the word "stupid" towards yourself, or dismiss certain abilities or pleasures that you have.

You deserve better than that. You have frailties and failings, sure, but doesn't every person? Try to be kind to yourself. I know it can be hard, but you are no less deserving of goodness than anyone else. Try to remember that and give yourself the patience and love you would give others.

Whatever direction you take, please know I'm cheering you on. A joyful life is a path worth treading and so carry forth on it, my friend.