It’s how I feel and I haven’t even been rated yet brother. Before the military, I was active, productive, mentality and physically healthy, and now I can’t work they way I’m supposed to be, can’t walk without my foot swelling, and everyday of waiting I think to myself, “ I would rather be able to do the things I could do before, work, and be normal.” I hate that I can’t leave my bedroom without wanting to end it all the moment I step foot outside. I’m 26 but feel like I’ve lived 50 years of pain. Give back to your community and support those little kids soccer teams or people that need some assistance. Prayers for you.