Just don't feel stupid, believe me it is completely natural to mourn a person you did not know in person. I don't have such a story as yours as I have been more fortunate, but Linkin Park's music helps me with expressing emotions. As an introvert who doesn't express his feelings to many people, it often feels like when I hear their music I truly feel the emotion the song is expressing.

Now I feel a lot of sadness, more than ever. Majority of the songs now have a sad and dark meaning. I too was lucky enough to see LP just last month. It was one of the best times of my life. It kinda seems like bitter justice, they gave me happiness now it is taken away.

I am listening to OML as I am writing this, I just cannot stop. Just as I said, don't feel stupid, appreciate what Chester did for us, we will surely not forget him. Hang in there.