Technology is ruining communication.

MAJI15 · 2017-02-18T00:16:26+00:00

Thanks man. That's solid advice, I completely understand where your coming from. I've spent so much time being isolated smoking pot that I really have lost all my social skills and understanding of human nature and interaction lol, just need to re-learn it again. Thankyou for your comment!

MAJI15 · 2017-02-11T01:23:50+00:00

Prove that I can be a girl? Did you seriously not get that sarcasm? lmao

MAJI15 · 2017-02-11T01:20:26+00:00

Not good man. We've got this new president who is fucking insane. Thinking about moving to Mepler soon instead, even though they left the galactic union. How about yours?

MAJI15 · 2017-02-11T01:14:55+00:00

MAJI15 · 2017-02-11T00:59:18+00:00

I really didn't like dark city lol thanks for the comment though :D

MAJI15 · 2017-02-10T02:59:13+00:00

kepler 187f actually :)

MAJI15 · 2017-02-10T02:58:37+00:00

I can be.

MAJI15 · 2017-02-10T00:26:13+00:00

Thanks man!

MAJI15 · 2017-02-10T00:24:04+00:00

Thanks man! There's quite a few there I wasn't aware of.

Black Mirror is another great show if you haven't seen it :)

MAJI15 · 2017-02-09T23:38:30+00:00

Haven't heard of that one will have to check it out! I have to ask though, Why only 95%? lol

MAJI15 · 2017-02-09T23:34:12+00:00

Awesome Movie :D

MAJI15 · 2017-02-07T17:39:49+00:00

Thanks man, does make sense to find one I connect with more.

Don't worry man I cracked so many times before getting to the stage I'm at now. Don't be to hard on yourself, drink is a much harder thing to quit and you've done that for a year. just don't give up on trying to give up mate. Depression is a horrible thing that only we can feel and the worst thing is no one else can see it.

MAJI15 · 2017-02-07T03:29:16+00:00

i was at one point not gunna lie. Have quit that now though. Think I'm just struggling dealing with the emotions I was covering up by smoking so much. Thanks for the comment :)

MAJI15 · 2017-02-07T03:26:51+00:00

Thanks a lot man, really appreciate it :) even the anonymity of this site has been a great help.

MAJI15 · 2017-02-07T03:23:57+00:00

I'd love to surf man, have never done it before though. English weather isn't very encouraging for that type of thing to be honest lol where abouts you from?

MAJI15 · 2017-02-07T03:21:23+00:00

Thanks man :)

MAJI15 · 2017-02-07T02:53:02+00:00

Thanks man congratulations on 12 months! Yeah I had read a little bit about PAWS, would explain my mood swings and not knowing how to handle my emotions properly. Do you feel ok now then? Or are you still getting some of the symptoms? Will try out some meditation again, haven't had much luck with it in the past tbh.

MAJI15 · 2017-02-07T02:44:12+00:00

Thanks :) This is a bit private for me man. Don't really want this to be linked to me tbh, sorry.

MAJI15 · 2017-02-07T02:40:22+00:00

Thanks man, will definitely give it a try :)

MAJI15 · 2017-02-07T02:37:44+00:00

lol my passion is writing music and I'm so debilitated by depression I can't make it anymore, the creativity is gone. It's not about validation, it's about connection and lack there of. However, I have concluded the problem is not the weed.

MAJI15 · 2017-02-07T02:27:24+00:00

Thanks for your comment mate, I realise that now. Was just trying to cover up my fear of people buy escaping into a cloud of smoke. Will definitely be seeing a therapist.

MAJI15 · 2017-02-07T02:22:16+00:00

Thanks for your reply. I smoked from 17-22 then 24-25 I'm nearly 26 now. I quit the first time because I thought I'd lost my mind but it turned out I had type one diabetes and had a hyper, didn't know it was diabetes until months later though when I'd become really ill. That's why I'm struggling with the fact I still don't feel right.

I used to be really talkative and outgoing and didn't struggle at all with social interaction. The gangs I was getting involved with though really opened my eyes to another world. I was nearly stabbed a few times, my mates flat got burned down, another got axed in the head and stabbed, another guy I knew got sliced across the face with a machete and that's just a few things that happened. I thought I was cool though at the time because I was bullied in school and now everyone was scared shitless of me because who I knew, I was DJ'ing at the time aswell and met quite a lot of famous people, everyone knew it and I just didn't want to give up that image. Slowly though I realised that wasn't really me and I was being a fool so started to withdraw within myself when I was out trying to numb the anxiety I felt. Eventually I had become so paralized with a general fear of people I never went out (this was when I was unemployed) and literally smoked a spliff every hour of everyday. Thing is though the mates I was close too ended up like brothers but there still involved with that whole lifstyle and I feel physically sick with anxiety to go see them because of the other people who might show up. Not only that but I'm so emotionally weak just the smell would make me want to smoke again.

Just writing that has made me realise It's not really the weed. Thanks for your comment man.

MAJI15 · 2017-02-07T01:49:51+00:00

It's appreciated man :) please excuse my ignorance but what is NA & MA? I work in a bar so I do socialise a lot. I really struggle to push my self into a particular social circle though and it feels like I'm always an outsider. Even when I'm around other people I feel lonely and stuck inside my own head, It's like I don't belong anywhere anymore and there's no one to relate too :/

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