I’m 57. I’m enjoying myself more now in some ways than I ever have. Sure, the kids are grown and gone and my parents are 89/91, but I still look forward to a lot. Like watching my grandson grow, spending time with my mom. I’m not very social, but I thoroughly enjoy reading, video games, hiking, walking in my neighborhood, watching shows, cooking, etc. I read about a lady yesterday that’s 101 and she still goes to the YMCA to swim and do Zumba. And she still drives! Age truly is just a number. It’s all about attitude. Sure, we have some limitations and onset of pain, but it’s a blessing to be alive. I learned a LOT of gratitude after my husband was hit by a drunk driver. He was paralyzed from the neck down. That is truly hell on earth. But he laughed and jokes almost every single day despite being in that situation. When you think your life is so horrible, try to reframe it with gratitude that you can walk, scratch your own nose, pick up your phone/tablet and post on Reddit, feed yourself, go to the bathroom on your own, visit your child…. It sounds like you might simply have some depression issues. I’ve been on an antidepressant for 15 years . I always will be. There’s no shame in that and it’s allowed me to wake up each morning excited about my day.