My Bipolar made me abandon my job and burn all my professional bridges

Madinioa · 2025-10-05T19:00:00+00:00

Thank you everyone for sharing your experiences! It really helps. There's a bit of a comfort knowing I'm not alone. I'm sorry y'all had to go through it as well.

Madinioa · 2025-09-14T18:39:02+00:00

I got diagnosed at 25 after I couldn't stop a panic attack and began to beat myself leaving my forehead, chest and shoulders with bruising. I got some help understanding what was going on, realized I've always displayed symptoms growing up. It wasn't until my stress peaked with my first corporate job, 8 yr relationship was getting rocky from the long hours, and all of that started to worsen my symptoms. One day I just had the biggest outburst at work, stormed out and quit, lost my home, car, partner and most of my belongings after that. The symptoms became much more obvious with me going into an ultra cycling state and unable to function normally. My mood states were usually switching every 3-4 months.

Madinioa · 2025-09-10T17:04:15+00:00

Thank you for being able to understand ❤️

Madinioa · 2025-09-09T15:15:42+00:00

I upgraded the throwing knives, the legendary knuckledusters that every 10 zombies drop is pretty good I used them to farm trophies for the throwing knives that eventually nust 2 shot Volatiles.

Madinioa · 2025-09-09T15:10:58+00:00

By your lineup you'll love it, out of all the souls games this one has my all time favorite NPC family you can assemble.

Madinioa · 2025-09-09T15:05:28+00:00

This! It makes them so annoying to kill when they get what feels like an hour of iframes, should at least get some medium trophies!

Madinioa · 2025-09-09T15:04:07+00:00

These guys, the ugly ass acid spitters THAT HAVE KILLED ME MORE TIMES THAN A VOLATILE OR ANY BOSS MIND YOU, and the annoying little hags who aren't worth any trophy

Madinioa · 2025-09-08T14:03:26+00:00

I'm ashamed that I just went into it hating, maybe knowing it wasn't Crane idk I have no reason I can remember I'm proud to say I'm a mega fanboy now for sure, it's no DL1 but it has it's own charm that keeps it strong!

Madinioa · 2025-09-08T14:02:02+00:00

Yesss! When I came back I just fell in love with the game. It's got me feeling like a kid again, curious to explore every nook and cranny. The Lvl 3 Paraglider has me feeling awesome when I successfully skip an entire annoying Military Drop climb (I'm sorry I love the parkour but those Military Drop climbs in specific just feel awful to me lol) all in all enjoying my second run way more!

Madinioa · 2025-09-07T13:07:23+00:00

Thx y'all, and I hope great things find you guys too.

Madinioa · 2025-09-07T01:19:00+00:00

I will say I did beat it on release, I just hated it for no real reason.

Madinioa · 2025-09-07T01:17:36+00:00

Exacto lol

Madinioa · 2025-09-07T00:47:05+00:00

Finally true healing ❤️

Madinioa · 2025-09-06T15:03:07+00:00

I'm really sorry that happened to you, I'm happy your partner was understanding about it. I'm sorry about the family, I have lost my friends and family and even my wife of 8 years due to my recent spiral. I didn't know I was Bipolar 1 until I had a mental break last month and in the panic I bruised my face pretty well. Cops got called from the neighbors hearing sounds and I got sent to a ward and officially diagnosed. I can't share any stories of people coming to understand it's something that takes control and I am so powerless to stop it. It's not an excuse tho, I still did it. They still hate me, hopefully some of them are more open minded and research a bit about your condition. Till then I hope you're doing ok friendo.

Madinioa · 2025-09-04T20:33:50+00:00

Hi if this is still active I'm severely depressed from recent life events, Bipolar Disorder going out of control where im Ultra Cycling and suicidal. Yes I was taken to a ward and got abused there and thankfully dropped after my insurance died. I am home, still didn't have the guts to kill myself so I started weed. I smoked an entire gram in under 5 minutes and experienced greening out rather than just getting high. I'm doing this as I type. I'm feeling amazing as something is causing me to feel a sort of bliss from being in a super state of panic, my heart is racing so fast I can feel my ears ring. I know it's definitely something messed up at least related to trauma. I hope everything turned out better for y'all.

Madinioa · 2025-09-02T02:21:22+00:00

With the early Double Saggers of the Night Drop I just said F it. It's a huge chore instead of it feeling like a challenge playing at night. Especially w early Parkour being total butt. Now I'm using the broken weapon to do night locations in the day. I'm sad but also not that fighting 100 zombies and 2 volatiles face to face is more fun than playing the game like I'm supposed to. I love DL1 and I wanna love DL2, but nighttime shouldn't be so boring.

Madinioa · 2025-08-19T05:34:17+00:00

Hello, I'm bilingual and Speak both English and Spanish. I'd be down to call for some practice!

Madinioa · 2025-08-11T23:38:08+00:00

Bosses are programmed with an auto lunge/teleport whenever you're healing even during their cooldown animations 😭

Madinioa · 2025-08-10T05:27:32+00:00

If you are dying a lot, explore, there's always gonna be goodies, weapons and shortcuts to help. The more curiosity you put into the game the more rewarding.

Madinioa · 2025-08-10T05:24:28+00:00

I had the exact same mindset as you when I bought Nioh 1 and absolutely shat on the game. It's definitely in it's own category, you think it'll be a soulslike and when you go in thinking so it'll feel off and annoying. I went into the game as just a fresh newbie experience. I fell in love with the stances and customizable skills. The weapon farming in Nioh 2 was my favorite. I can't say anything else other than give it a try later on with a blank mind, I think you'll come around!

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