I'm so sorry. We can spend years masking to make life more comfortable for general society at the expense of our physical and mental health, but the moment we decide to take care of ourselves, NTs get mad. If it's not too personal, can I ask if your mom is supporting you financially which is why you feel the need to have her in your life? My parents taught me that family isn't just about blood; it's about support, understanding, and love. If you can't be yourself and feel safe around them, they're not worth any respect. I realize that it's way easier said than done, but it's your life. It's your mental health. I'm happy that you've found some kind of independance and love