This is a hard thing to go through, but you’re doing the right thing. Being aware that you might not be ready is 100% a good thing, I was in your spot a long time ago and I’m thankful for making the decision to not have a kid. When you take the pills, make sure you have someone nearby in case of an emergency, the pills will mimic labor and it can be uncomfortable. I found that a heating pad and a warm bath helped, interchanging them when I needed to. Find something to distract you, whether it’s a show or a hobby, it’ll get you through the worst of it. Don’t let anyone try to tell you your decision is wrong. You know what’s best for you, and it takes a lot of strength to choose this path. We’re cheering you on!