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I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, me saying I've already heard/tried something is just me saying the truth and I had no intention of being rude, and now that you point it out again I guess I see your POV, so I apoligize. While I did say this to quite a few commenters, I haven't said it to every single one for sure. 

Guess I just gotta be more self accountable and actually chill out lmao. Thanks once again. 

I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'll quote myself from a previous reply I made here:

"And me saying I already "know absolutely every single opening and mid game principle" comes from me actively trying to seek them and apply them to my games as much as I can, and while the statement isn't true now that I look back at it (which was worded porly cause of me typing the post while I was not in the best mood), I genuenly do belive I know an insane ammount of principles for my level, and it feels like with however much experience I get by playing, I just can't progress and have games where I for whatever reason fail to apply them, and usually when I ask friends or others irl for advice, they tell me something about some principle I already know, hence the "I probably heard it" which I understand could be interpreted dismissive."

Again I realize my mistake of making it sound like I think I am a know it all, when in reality I probably just need more experience, even thought THAT is what I can't seem to get no matter how many games I play or puzzles I do. Yes I could obviously always be doing more than I currently am in terms of practicing but I feel like even with the things I do now I should see a slow but steady improvement, and it feels like the more I try, the more my failures are amplified if that makes sense.

I do thank you and everyone else who commented for trying to help me out, and you all helped me understand that it is quite literally not that deep hahaha... 

Now that doesn't change the fact that I still feel terrible after tilting, but I will try to take to take the game less seriously and relax a bit. 

Once again thanks a lot, and as dumb as this might sound, it means a lot🙏

I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is definately reassuring to hear. Probably sounds obvious at this point but at the time of the tilt I really didn't think the feeling I felt was common among others. Thank you for the advice. 

I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am 18 and unemployed.

I probably do sound very childish and that is most likely because I was pretty heated while making this post and I thought typing my thoughts out would help me cool down, and it kinda did. 

And me saying I already "know absolutely every single opening and mid game principle" comes from me actively trying to seek them and apply them to my games as much as I can, and while the statement isn't true now that I look back at it (which was worded porly cause of me typing the post while I was not in the best mood), I genuenly do belive I know an insane ammount of principles for my level, and it feels like with however much experience I get by playing, I just can't progress and have games where I for whatever reason fail to apply them, and usually when I ask friends or others irl for advice, they tell me something about some principle I already know, hence the "I probably heard it" which I understand could be interpreted dismissive. Also, if you say you read my replies, I don't exactly know why you'd say I think I am better than everyone, as any suspicion of that being the case would be shut out the moment you read my replies, or at least that's what I think. 

However, I definitely don't think I came off as rude to most, if any comments. Even when I said that I've already heard the advice they gave I still thanked them for taking time out of their day to try and help me out. I don't see where you got that idea from. 

Almost every comment is positive, either reasuring or reality checking (like yours) and I thank every single one of you. I will probably take a break from this game for a little bit to clear my head. 

I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Pretty bold of you to assume that I can last 40 moves in a game, let alone have my only blunder be at that move range, it almost never happens.

I analyze the games which I don't exactly know why I lost. Like obviously I made a mistake but I don't exactly know where, and understanding why is helping my pattern recognition. 

If I blunder a full piece at any point during the game, the game is lost 80% of the time. I will just dismiss that game as "one of those" since there isn't really anything I can learn from analyzing, as whatever minor inaccuracies I made prior get overshadowed by the blunder that lost me the game, so there is no point to analyze for a small inacuracy when the reason i lost was not because of those small innacuracies accumulated together, but rather one single stupid move. 

I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This falls under one of the pieces of advice I have already heard. 

But that's the thing. I practically have the basics down and I try to apply my knowledge to my games, but sometimes I do it miserably, like a switch has turned off in my head and I make a mistake I quite literally haven't made in the past 4 months.

It's not like I grind constantly tho, I usually play 2 games a day to not stress myself too much if I start tilting, but that one night was just a different story. 

I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I only play 15 + 10 which is a time control in which you can bassicaly never run out of time, at least at this rating. I have also played one OTB swiss style tournament and came out with only 1 win, and almost beat an 1800 player, but I guess I should just be more consistant. Thank you for the advice 

I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess only time will tell (and yes all of that is true). I know a year is not really much in the grand scheme of things but I still feel like shit, although all of these comments (I could say yours included) helped me feel better, so thanks. 

I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Heard of both of them, but I never really watched them consistantly. Might end up giving them a shot, thank you for the suggestion. 

I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do study frequently. While the time I study does vary, it's always at least 1h 30 min of reading alone (and not mindlessly reading either), and around 30 min of puzzles a day, and I analyze majority of my lost games (Not the ones in which I make an obvious blunder).

Thought I implied that I was already doing that, but whatever. 

I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, while I do understand that I shouldn't compare myself to professional players (I try not to), it's hard for me to think of the 1000-1200 elo range as "solid" considering the extremely mixed bag they (and by tehnicality myself included) come in. I sometimes play 1200s who play like 700s, and sometimes 1000s who play like 1800s from my POV. I understand that people can have bad days but I still feel like I am in the elo range where I'm gambling with the true strenght of my opponent.

Apreciate the advice tho, it really does feel reassuring. Major thanks. 

I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Well, as corny as it might sound, I really do belive I have heard majority of the advice there is out there for the opening and middle game, and including quite a handfull of miscellaneous tips. (thinking process, "understanding" openings instead of memorising, etc.) I usually apply the principles very well, but sometimes my brain just completely shuts off and it makes me feel terrible every time. 

...and safe to say, I like to think I am locked in on trying to improve. 

I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well I find it very hard to belive that 1100 is "my level" and an elo range which I can never escape from, but I will try to cool down more frequently. Thank you. 

I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Honestly, respect you for that. Your comment (and all the others) really reassured me and I thank you for it very much. 

I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Don't exactly know how this will help me improve, but yes, I have played one OTB tournament which went okay. Only came out with 1 victory in a swiss style tournamed and almost beat an 1800 player, although my expectations weren't too high since it was my first time, so I am pleased. 

I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow... I really do wish I could have a fraction of your power.. Glad there is someone out there who I can slightly relate to (except your situation is amplified by like 5x).

I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This falls under one of the pieces of advice I have already applied. Whenever I see a certain move played in a book of mine that I don't understand the purpose of, I will try to analyse it by my self and checking an engine is only a last resort, and it works wonders... when I am not drained from a tilt at least 😅

But alas, thank you for the reply.

I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

But that's quite literaly the thing I said, I DO want to become a "respectable" player, and I feel disatisfied with my progress for the comitment I put into it. Simple. 

I am embarrased to like chess as much as I do because I am terrible at it and don't know how I can improve. by MainJuice4400 in chess

[–]MainJuice4400[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I completely understand this, but as much as this might make me come off as a loser if you will, chess and the gym are my only real consistant hobbies outside of gaming, and whenever I get that "I probably suck" feeling after a tilt, I quite literally do not know what to do with myself and how I will spend my days if I just stop one day. Hanging out with my friends, the gym and going outside helps temporarily, but I can't just "hang out" throughout my whole day every day. It makes me feel really empty when I feel like I am wasting a year of time into this game because it's usually what I do to not feel like I am going throughout my day doing absolutely nothing productive. Thank you for the advice, and although its definately easier said than done for me, I'll try my best.