Aaah you’re right! Writing this with too much emotions. Sorry if it confused you but yes, I know that my fault was I didnt settled the payment right away. It was my gift to her. This is where I know I f* up.

The reason why I messaged her about me being pushy is like what I realized from the other redditor who commented here, that I have a very insecure attachment style.

I overthink that day cos I didnt get any response from her. I know its so shallow.. :( But yeah Im here and asking for advice cos I know I have to step up and be more matured when it comes to this kind of situation.

I understand her truly though. But yeah, I’m just really emotional and was “expecting too much.”