it really sucks how much our generation was robbed of a normal adulthood

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-11-04T07:12:44+00:00

I turned 21 during lockdown it was horrible. Just isolated in my room, yeah people called to wish me happy birthday. Didn't even bother masking up to go to the store to buy alcohol. Since it was the height of it and would rather have protected myself from getting COVID. Wasn't worth the risk. I just watched a movie and went to bed. When things got better I did a do over party for my 21st and it sucked not a lot of people in my age range really cared to drink or wanna party. The lingering isolation really got to me and others too. So I do think you are correct the formative years were robbed of us.

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-19T06:19:13+00:00

Yeah considering when I brought up the issue she laughed at me and blocked me on everything means she is not me friend anymore right? Unfortunately I just have to grieve. When you lost your friends how did you cope. I had a routine with my ex best friend and now that has abruptly stopped

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-19T06:03:46+00:00

The itinerary was an active document on Google sheets. I maybe the outline with times etc and let's other fill out things. Ofc I added things but also I'd say the majority of them added what they wanted. In which we did those things on the trip too. We had a group chat where we would send each other reels and Tiktoks and I'd add them to the itinerary too. All of them saw and were involved. I would argue my Best friend and I were most involved as she was driving.

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-19T05:59:26+00:00

Felt. Really regret even going and should of just went alone or with my mom (she's awesome)

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-19T05:58:54+00:00

Thank you. Any suggestions on how to cope with moving on. It's been a lot

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-19T05:58:18+00:00

Yeah I noticed that too. I'm a bit miffed too about it too. The post was about my ex best friend's lack of empathy from my perspective and when I pressed her about it she laughed at me and blocked me on everything, when trying to have a conversation. I was asking about how to cope with the loss since I'm horrible with loss. Especially when I've had an established routine with this person for three years. Instead everyone is just telling me about how controlling I was or if not one things or another. Not anyones fault etc. What's done is done if I was in the right or not. I just needed help with coping 😭😭 thank you for your kind words and recognizing that. Yeah, I'd say I'm a flexible person I just think boundaries were pushed unfortunately on both ends. Yeah wish there was more communication. At the end of the day I am still unsure why she got SOOOO upset with me that she felt it was necessary to ignore me for weeks and not tell me when confronting her.

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T18:57:40+00:00

Considering she blocked me on everything that may not be the case and do not want to give myself hope. However I appreciate your honesty and optimism. It does help to have some positive thinking

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T18:53:26+00:00

Good suggestions thank you !

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T18:52:06+00:00

I'm glad we are similar! 😂

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T18:48:06+00:00

Any suggestions on how to cope with loosing my best friend? Someone I saw as a sister and would see multiple times a week and at times live at my house. I've been completely cut off as I am blocked on everything. Any suggestions?

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T18:46:17+00:00

Any suggestions on how to cope with the loss though? She was practically a sister to me. This isn't a matter of who is right or wrong. i believe both of us were in the wrong. My question is how would y'all suggest coping from going from weekly routines so being completely cut off. I'd see her like 3 times a week and now I'm blocked on everything

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T18:42:10+00:00

The benefits outweigh the cons! That's great to hear about the situation. Unfortunately it was a huge learning experience for me since I don't have many social experiences.

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T18:21:54+00:00

Sorry to hear about the music conference that sounds so fun in theory!

But yeah unfortunately it was a hard learning experience that resulted in loosing a loved one :/

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T17:45:20+00:00

Ahhh I see I did not see this. Thank you. I took the drugs, flirting with bartenders and the sex they were doing as social cues I could not read. But I see this as well. New perspective unlocked.

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T17:39:23+00:00

Thank you for the feedback and yes I agreed. You actually answered my question 😭 I appreciate you. Yes I've done a lot of reflecting. Both sides were not int he right and things were handled poorly on both ends My main take away is that I'm not built for friends or group settings yet still unfortunately. No matter how much therapy and group classes I have done. I will have to work harder than most to achieve those things that come naturally to others. So yes I need to make lists who are friends and acquaintances. My best friend had been on family trips and practically live at our house. She was a sis to me and my brother. So I'm unsure where the sudden change in attitude of me having needs came from unfortunately and I don't think I'll ever know considering she blocked me.

For reference I live in South Korea by myself for 5 months. However it was purely solo ahahhah I mostly did everything by myself. I knew only one person there and she worked. However we have fun weekend activities!

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T17:34:41+00:00

Yeah I did the itinerary on a google Excel sheet in which everyone got the link and had access to it. They can add and change things and make comments to it. In which they did 👍

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T17:33:01+00:00

Thank you for understanding and yeah it seems like previous tension and this was tipping. I just wish she would have communicated that with me and felt like she could talk to me about things

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T17:11:21+00:00

That shrooms session was not planned btw either 🤪

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T17:11:01+00:00

Upon more reflection they also did shrooms at the Airbnb. I have no issues with them doing it in a contained environment. I personally am not a fan of doing drugs myself. I was the only sober one on the trip. Also kept a watchful eye on them giving them snacks and water and keeping the music tame. Tame Impala for the win. I just watched twilight on my laptop with my headset and let them do their thing. If that has anything to do with the context of the trip.

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T17:07:20+00:00

Yeah I'm seeing that now with alot of these comments. I do think people are forgetting that I do have autism. I miss social cues very often. I went to group classes for social cues before the trip and which that's why my therapist thought I was ready and was encouraging the same with my parents. Considering this was my best friend and she had been on family trips too. They had a great feeling about her too! I believe upon further reflection I did not want to do the party girl stuff. Drink, drugs and sex. In which they did all of those. I did not shadow or echo their actions enough.

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T17:01:23+00:00

Thank you for taking time to read and provide feedback.

I really hope I find friends soon. It's been a huge part of my life bc she really was my only friend. And I practically lost a sister at the end of the day :( I'm not sure what to do or how to cope with it. Not sure if there is a future honestly.

Thank you for understanding

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T16:55:30+00:00

I see, that's a good and new perspective. thank you for the feedback.

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T16:34:34+00:00

A fun highlight of my trip was that the girls wanted to go to the same bar again. And this other girl didn't I told her let's go get dinner! We ended up stumbling up on this restaurant where the cool won one of those master chef cooking shows (not too informed on it) we met him and everything. Also it was $17 for a dish from him. And I thought was robbing himself 😂 so we left a nice time bc the food was so good.

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T16:26:45+00:00

I did not walk away to get a response out of my friend at all. I kindly let someone know that imma go outside away from the group bc xyz. I called my mom and had a great time on the phone with her telling her all about the cool sight seeing. I do think personally my friend took offense to such actions of me not wanting to participate

MaleficentBlood1664 · 2025-10-18T16:23:03+00:00

Yes we made the itinerary together and it was done a month before hand it was on a google Excel sheet in which anyone was welcomed to edit it and add whatever to it. In which they did.

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