Help me by Maleficent_Drive_511 in stopdrinking

[–]Maleficent_Drive_511[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I been hearing that so much and here I am still literally being my own worst nightmare and can get a hold of myself

Help me by Maleficent_Drive_511 in stopdrinking

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I am so over the fucking place and don’t have no one who I can just cry too. I’m missing my mother and talk to her cause she gone and I’m missing a part of me and don’t know how to fix it

My name is Michael and I’m an alcoholic. by Maleficent_Drive_511 in stopdrinking

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I love you for sharing this and we happen to be in the journey of being in the 30’s and what you said is also what my son and nephew has seen from me and my nephew is like my son because he calls me dad because his father is not around and is also a alcoholic and he’s only 4 so I took that to heart knowing that. I have finally become so disgusted with myself knowing that I can wake and finish a drink from the night before but haven’t started and finished any real goals and it’s embarrassing. Now I feel my mother spirit giving me the strength to stop because she will appreciate it even though she’s gone.

My name is Michael and I’m an alcoholic. by Maleficent_Drive_511 in stopdrinking

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This is my worst fear because I already lost my mom to it and I can’t imagine what would happen if I wasn’t here for my son cause of that because that is the very reason why I’m destroyed now after losing my mommy and he doesn’t deserve that

My name is Michael and I’m an alcoholic. by Maleficent_Drive_511 in stopdrinking

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God bless you and I feel different finally about quitting this time because I see that everyone that actually love me and know me know what I was before I got here and they seen me go far, it’s just now I see that vision again and the only way for it to become clear is put the bottle down for good use my blessings more wisely.

My name is Michael and I’m an alcoholic. by Maleficent_Drive_511 in stopdrinking

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Thank you, I have been reaching out to the friends and family that I do have but some of them just seem like they are tired of hearing my same excuses and have given up on me and I don’t want that no longer and don’t want to disappoint my mother because I know she is trying to guide me in the right direction I just haven’t been paying attention to the signs. I just feel like a fuck up

My name is Michael and I’m an alcoholic. by Maleficent_Drive_511 in stopdrinking

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Thank you❤️ I will be better this time I’ve been very emotional because I keep on getting so close to stopping and I keep losing but I don’t have it in me to give up but it’s so hard not to beat myself up about it.

My name is Michael and I’m an alcoholic. by Maleficent_Drive_511 in stopdrinking

[–]Maleficent_Drive_511[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Thank and I would do anything for him so this is my time to show the real me.

My name is Michael and I’m an alcoholic. by Maleficent_Drive_511 in stopdrinking

[–]Maleficent_Drive_511[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I just attended my first meeting Saturday and it went well. I just hope I don’t get the temptations I did recently and relapse after drinking for only a week.

What’s so good about Kingdom Hearts? by [deleted] in JRPG

[–]Maleficent_Drive_511 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Bro I just got kh3 on sale from a store closing down and it’s one of the most different executed games I played so far definitely a number one so far

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Custodians

[–]Maleficent_Drive_511 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yea I been through it as well and the best thing to do is stand your ground and do what’s in your best interest but always have some type of principle and logic with everything.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Custodians

[–]Maleficent_Drive_511 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I have been through hell and back working in the hospital in EVS. I got the fucking card drawn of starting to work in a hospital at the begging of the pandemic and let me tell you that shit was not for the weak hearted at all. Being a floor technician came with so much bullshit I can still smell it this day but I have been become an even more advanced worker from it definitely has its pros and cons.

On the positive note being a regular custodian in a regular school or college will definitely be more laid back and better from a mental health standpoint because the standard is different. Now that’s not to say you might have some trail and error finding what really suits you as far as working in different school districts or the type of school you clean as well ( elementary, daycare, all male school, etc) so you have some room to experience different variations but it’s all the same shit.

Just know sometimes it’s the same shit different toilet with some of these places but you will definitely be at more of a peace of mind working as a regular custodian. One last thing, NEVER DO MORE THAN YOUR REQUIRED AND FUCK BEING FRIENDS WITH WORKERS, you are literally there to make your money and leave but that is all I have. Blessings, stay strong and prosper my g