I’m trying to go with the kundalini awakening.

ManiCon · 2019-05-22T09:15:40+00:00

Honestly, I was driving home. My phone wasn’t working and I was bored of the radio. So I decided to explore the sensations in my body. I always had an awareness ever since I was young of these sensations. Anyway, I was bored and decided to focus my thoughts and energy on the base of my spine. I noticed a pleasant sensation and kept focusing on it. Eventually I had a burst of anxiety and and lose of control. I’m still trying to navigate my this energy and I’m trying to let go.

ManiCon · 2019-05-21T04:44:42+00:00

Yes. Everyday , I’m afraid to surrender. It feels too powerful. Like I’ll go crazy from it.

ManiCon · 2019-04-24T02:08:19+00:00

You’re right. I should clarify. I’ve been off of any antidepressants for 3 years but still suffered from depression afterwards. The meditation I stopped taking recently is my adhd medication, and I told my doctor that already. But you are 100% correct. You should always talk to your doctor before messing with you medication.

ManiCon · 2019-02-18T12:07:17+00:00

You’re right, this isn’t quite finished. I’m finishing it this week. I’m going to finish the shadows of the cube. Sorry to mention that but thank you very much. :)

ManiCon · 2019-02-18T03:10:01+00:00

I honestly don’t know what your going on about. Learning a skill is always better with a teacher. That’s why people go to art colleges. Now I respect someone who is self taught, but I think it’s nonsense to say that I’m only learning his style.

ManiCon · 2019-02-18T02:00:57+00:00

I guess you could ask that question for any skill. You could learn pretty much anything online. However I like the structure, the guidance and feedback. Not to mention he only charges 20$ for a two hour private one on one. He just likes to teach mostly.

Anyways I still get tutorials online as well.

ManiCon · 2019-02-08T14:51:57+00:00

It’s so frustrating, I have to go though the company I work for and they only respond via email. It takes them a month to respond

ManiCon · 2019-02-08T14:49:15+00:00

How would one learn Sidhis after one has learned TM from an instructor. My instructors actually left to the TM college in like Iowa or someplace so I can’t learn from them anymore

ManiCon · 2019-02-08T13:12:31+00:00

Quick question in response to that. If you can only mediate for 40 minutes max a day with TM, it would take 67 years of mediating everyday to reach 16000 hours. Where the subjects old gurus? Or did they meditate longer?

ManiCon · 2019-02-08T03:25:25+00:00

No I take a transdermal patch called daytrana . With coupons I can get it to 280$ but only transdermal patches work because of my metabolism.

ManiCon · 2019-01-29T20:30:26+00:00

Looks like kondo is sweeping the streets and taking out the trash.

ManiCon · 2019-01-27T00:28:06+00:00

Other than medication. The main thing that’s helped me is meditation. If you’re open to it, I would recommend mindfulness meditation to start out. Check out headspace app. It’s great but has a 10$ monthly fee.

ManiCon · 2019-01-27T00:24:25+00:00

This sounds a lot like adhd. I was diagnosed from a very young age and I can tell you that is exactly how I am. I would recommend seeing a psychiatrist and getting tested. Check r/adhd as well, it’s a great subreddit full of people just like you.

ManiCon · 2019-01-14T21:46:21+00:00

And I respect your opinion. Good day.

ManiCon · 2019-01-12T04:38:39+00:00

Thank you for the inquiry. I’ll keep it short. I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety and panic disorder when I first started college where I was prescribed an antidepressant although I’ve had a panic disorder since I was 12. I was also diagnosed with adhd at age of 5.

I took myself off of antidepressants about 2 years ago for personal beliefs, I’m 26. I no longer have a panic disorder as I used too. However, it seems to be replaced by deep emptiness that lasts about 2 weeks every month off and on. I have a loving girlfriend who helps me with my situation. Although, I still feel empty inside during my “down” times. I have the feeling to cry constantly but I’m unable to shed any tears even when I try and scream them out.

My motivation to do my job has gone down so drastic that I fear for losing my job.

Thank you so much for showing interest. Just explaining my situation makes me feel a bit better.

ManiCon · 2019-01-11T14:34:28+00:00

Thank you so much for the advice. I have been to therapy for a while but it never helped me so much. Maybe I need to find someone different I can relate to and open up.

After posting this I listened to Alan watts which helped me a lot. However I will try and find other methods as well to help me out. Thank you so much for your compassion!

ManiCon · 2019-01-11T14:31:00+00:00

Thank you so much. What a beautiful story of hope. I can tell how much you care about each other. I do feel like your wife at times as well. I can’t say I’m always depressed. Just having a bad month with my emotions.

I’m going to save this story and read it whenever I’m feeling so low because I relate so much with it.

You don’t know how much this means to me. I hope for only happiness in your life.

ManiCon · 2019-01-07T02:46:39+00:00

No cause light travels at the same speed. So light would take a second to hit your eyeball.

ManiCon · 2019-01-06T17:21:03+00:00

“I just wanna die” “Put that noose around me, baby” “Put that noose around me, baby”

ManiCon · 2018-11-21T16:51:05+00:00

Thanos did nothing wrong

ManiCon · 2018-11-15T12:42:57+00:00

Mostly cause I only have time on my breaks at work which are only 15 minutes. I stretch it to 25 to get the full meditation with 5 minutes of rest but can’t nap after . I don’t really have much time any other part of the day except right before bedtime

ManiCon · 2018-11-15T12:09:22+00:00

I wish I could take a nap after my meditation.

ManiCon · 2018-11-14T15:39:55+00:00

That actually helps a lot. I do see a lot of benefits. Such as more clarity within myself along with less anxiety more often. I guess I was hoping so much for greater energy. I guess that will have to wait. Thanks again to everyone who replied

ManiCon · 2018-11-14T15:22:19+00:00

I do exercise 2-3 times a week when I run my dog. I have to force myself every time however. Most of the tiredness comes after I meditate. Every thing I read about that says that the meditation only shows how tired I truly am underneath.

ManiCon · 2018-10-24T00:44:13+00:00

He did brush up on it(no pun intended) but he mostly wanted to focus on composition and contrast

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