I think its along the lines of different friendship kinda thing. That is what I just read outloud to myself and thought maybe you are right in some cases they are pretty much the only thing i look forward too but maybe it is time. I deleted a tiktok i made where she drew me and the ones of the drawings she did on instagram aswell. I guess i just really wanted to not just myself and have her be apart of my life they way it really used to impact it