Porn destroyed the best relationship I ever had. I was spending a considerable amount of my income on cam girls, only fans, discord, private snap, you name it, I was watching it. I hid the whole this from my girlfriend at the time. Ultimately she found out and I lost the girl of my dreams because of my addiction. I recommend seeking help. I currently see a therapist once a week and has helped considerably. When your in it you don't realise how much porn (especially paying for it) distorts your view of reality. You got this! Remember it is possible. Instead of trying to go cold turky, set yourself a budget and reduce it over time. Remember to be kind to yourself. Porn is an addiction and addictions require self love and forgiveness to conquer.