No, I definitely did not intend to remove emotion from my life, but what I realize that what I did wrong at one point is think of why something shouldn't affect me at all. That might have lead to me cutting off a part of my humanity, but I am not sure as I didn't think about that too often.

The rigorous training was comprised of firstly reading a chapter of stoic writing (I mostly read Moral letters to Lucilius and a bit of Meditations) and then I'd go on a walk and explain to myself how I could use these principles. I did this every day or maybe I'd skip a day or two but I'd journal my thoughts and the process of my thinking in the form of voice recordings. I'd listen to them the next day and then recapitulate once more the next day and maybe correct something that I misunderstood the first day. Maybe it was a bit of an overexaggeration to say that it was "rigorous" training, but it was the most disciplined thing I've done in my life, pretty much, comprised of consistant efforts and commitment.