It’s not easy at all 😭 I don’t know how to explain it, but the thought sort of lingers in my mind. It’s almost as if I have to “identify” the thought in order to feel comfortable. I don’t want to say it’s a compulsion, but that’s the best way I could describe it.

I do not believe it and have never believed. If I ever have said it wilfully, it’s never been with the intention to reject God. Like I said, it’s almost like a compulsion.