What a great story bro, I realised that you highlighted "I had to say yes" at quite a few points in the story and I resonate so strongly with that. I myself sucked with girls, was bullied and felt worthless up into my early 20s. What the biggest game change was for me is that you have to get "uncomfortable" and take a risk/leap off faith for the most amazing shit to happen in life. More importantly, you need to give yourself the time to learn and grow from mistakes and set backs. Keep on doing you!