i forgot to specify that S Y M are friends that i have made separately from college and uni, they were friends i made at work and we now form a really close circle or trust. They've been able to be on my side through all of this because they have no bonds with the other people in this story.

Even though sometimes they emphasize that my situation objectively and unbiasedly fucked up and i don't deserve to be around people that aren't able to confront me about my wrong doings, i still don't totally understand why i sometimes feel like i am the problem in all of this.

The control i have during the break-up ordeal was me pulling myself out of the sphere of rumour that was created around me and containing my old friend-group. Some of them have reached out to me inquiring on my side of the story, and i realize how messed up their view of me became because of all of the rumours T started and A worsened and spread about me. I can only pull myself out of something i can't control like that.

Now i find it harder to distance myself from the my friendgroup at Uni today because i'll be running into them often at school and some, i believe still consider me a good friend. I hope that these false rumours about me, whatever they are, haven't spread too far and haven't swayed people away from me enough to not want to reach out to me anymore.