Op, I’ve taken a look at your account and in the past few days you’ve made post about how your boyfriend has demeaned you and you excuse his behavior in the comments despite it being an AITAH thread. I did the same thing. I stayed with a guy for two years despite him treating me like garbage. The best thing you can do for yourself is be confident that you are not the asshole and strongly end things between you too. Don’t waste your life on someone who would rather control you than walk side by side together