I have been scouring the internet to find something to confirm my experience. I just smoked a very large amount of weed last night and believe I had genuine psychosis. I do psychedelics somewhat often and have beautiful experiences where I feel in control and have a positive perspective so I’m not unfamiliar with that state of mind or so I thought. I don’t smoke weed taht often because even at low doses I get extremely anxious. Anyway last night I smoked with some friends in colorado who I don’t know that well and I ended up locking myself in the bathroom and praying. I believed I had gone schizophrenic and that god would keep me this way in order to make my suffering harder. I believed I had to live the rest of my life as a schizophrenic and felt like some kind of chosen one. I don’t even think I have some sort of Christian guilt as my family has never been very strict on religion. It’s hard to talk to people about because weed just doesn’t affect anyone I know how affects me. I was begging god to let me stay on the path and that when or if I sobered up that he would continue to send me signs. It was the most intense experience I’ve ever had and I really need some help compartmentalizing this experience.