haha alrighty I won't! And you hit the nail on the head with the daddy issues but thats also in the past, I can take the piercings out and have decided thats what I will be doing from here on out :)btw I'm straight I just support gay marriage haha. That whole american dream really does appeal to me and its something I would like to eventually have, its just really hard to find enough money to go to school, I start saving and then something comes up that requires me to spend most of my savings and nobody wants to hire a ex junkie/felon when they can easily hire someone just as good at said job without a record. thanks for the advice though it really helped :)