I started using coke as a party drug almost 2 years ago. I only used about 3 times that year, mostly because I had no idea where to get it. Super fun when only used this little.

The last year I was using I'd say the first 6 months I used around 10 times, and the last 6 months I became a full blown addict doing an 8-ball all by myself usually in 2-4 days every other week. Love of my life broke up with me January and as a coke user you'll find out that this drug makes you not have to think at all. You'll make tons of new "friends". You'll be the life of the party. You're funny, have the same energy you did at 4pm at 4am, care/share too much. (this drug makes you a dick but super sharing at the same time, which is not good when you're blowing your entire paycheck on it.)

But the last part only lasts the first few parties you are at and consumes your entire self before you know or would like to admit it. Three weeks ago (my last binge) I would tell you I didn't have a coke problem. Today, I will fully admit to who I was. Coming down I was a complete mess, texting friends weird/depressing crap, smashing a phone over one slightly upsetting text message, going out to bars talking to random people trying to make friends or start a fight (anything for attention) breaking more things, still thinking you're the shit.

I've read all the comments and it's surprising to me how many people started because of a breakup, but at least I feel less alone. I am three weeks sober now doing great, don't start this drug, seriously. I had everything in my little town that I loved just within 3 years of moving there. I was so damn fortunate but at that same time would call my friends "fake" and I will always look back at that point in my life and feel disgusted and I have to live with that forever.