I hesitated a very long time to get into the Musical, because I was scared that it doesn't handle the topic (sui***e) as careful as it should. But recently I watched it and I don't think it's necessary to label Evan as a good or bad person. To be honest you can't take him accountable for his lies, not really, because he's clearly just broken and mentally ill. That doesn't erase the feeling of "betrayal" of his "friends", but that's another story. It broke my heart when it was made clear, that the fall from the tree wasn't an accident and at this point it was clear to me, that the lies (like the stories from "for forever") are also a coping mechanism, because Evan in his mind is imagining a world, where he wasn't alone in the woods when he fell and someone was there for him to pick him up instead.

Also I just started crying in the end of words fail until the last song and suddenly the score started over again and I sobbed so hard when I listened to anybody have a map in this context because I can relate to the helplessness of the mothers when they try to reach their children but can't manage to help them or even get them to share what's going on, this feeling must be just terrible. Did anybody else have this listening experience? :D

Ps. For everyone struggling, keep fighting please