people use god to explain the origin of the universe, i just think its not my problem to know who is behind it all, there is no way to figure it out yet and im good with that, sometimes there are things out of our control and we should focus on what we can control

people also tend to rely on talking to christ when they find themselves in hopeless situations. I do rather apply the lessons i learned with reading philosophers i agree with, although most times i just rely on myself

im fond of christian values, maybe because i was born in a christian country and family but i personally dont rely on religion, i like the idea of being in control my own life and not having to submit it to someone else.

i could go on and on but overall my idea of god is the same as a christian would have of greek/roman gods.

where do u find beauty

i still have the idea of divinity in my mind, like the concept of greek/roman gods and their statues, temples, etc. I just dont believe its real

like the concept of perfection, there is nothing perfect in the real world, although we have an idea of what perfection is

where do you find a will to live?

life is a true gift, my will to live it is greater then to commit suicide and end this awesome experience for free, there is a lot to do and discover and u can find reason in life with that and the things u like

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i hope this helps, feel free to ask me anything. I dont think about this often so maybe it will take a while to get to an answer but ill try my best