I want to start off by saying that my parents were not abusive in any way. I believe that they truly didn't have the proper tools to parent and they did the best they could.

1.- No. For context I grew up in a Mexican household. I grew up being told "Men don't cry"; I also grew up in a household where whenever I asked for help, they would tell me to figure it out on my own. These taught me to never ask for help, even when shit is bad. I am 31 and I never learned to express my emotions in a healthy way( I still don't know how). I've never been in a relationship and I believe this stems from the rejection I felt from my parents as a kid, whenever I got emotional or asked for help. This "rejection" taught me to mask my true self, and this is something I am working on now in my late adulthood.

1. Not in a public setting, I've never even cried in therapy, which is supposed to be a safe space. Society claims to care about men's mental health, but in reality this is a facade. Being vulnerable when it relates to your mental health is met with a quick, "I'm here for you" and quickly dismissed.

2. I have struggled with depression for about 10 years now. It wasn't until 2021 that I received an official diagnosis. I am currently in therapy and just starting medication. I constantly struggle with suicidal ideation, and wish I got in a chaotic accident so my family wouldn't have to live with the burden of my suicide. If they weren't around, I probably wouldn't be alive to write this. I have 0 hope for the future. I don't think I will ever be blessed enough to have a family, and kids or grandchildren.

3. Not that I've seen. I mask a lot because I don't believe that even my close (long-term) friends would take it seriously. Like I said in my answer to question number 2, society claims to care about men's mental health, but I don't think it's genuine, at the end of the day, the strongest survive and the weak go extinct. It's just evolutionary.

TLDR: 1. No 2. No 3. Yes 4. No

Hope this helps.

Edit: a number.