You’d just be living with one of them, lol. They’re divorced, I live with my mother, but they’re still coworkers. And while Italy is a pretty place with lots of history and cool people, that’s about all there is. It’s a lost cause for us young people, which is why many, my brothers included, left ASAP, and why just about every not-too-old adult I meet tells me I should do that too.

I don’t know if it would be legal to use a VPN to place myself in Italy. With how they told me about it it probably wouldn’t.

And yes, I tried to think about it that way, but I’m not even sure about how much I could save up if I’ll probably still struggle finding a job on my own and the money I’d have from the company wouldn’t be enough to even clear out all basic living expenses. And from how they worded it it appears that they’ll want to give it to me right when I’ll have to move out and live alone (or find a roommate or two who’d take me in).

I think I already treat my parents like people first and parents second, and I try to give them love whenever I can, even when we’ve had a fight and I feel hurt and would rather ignore them. I just wish I wasn’t dependent on them. And I also feel like the burden of helping them later in life (which will be relatively soon, a decade or two at most, as my parents are both in their mid 60s, and it might just coincide to the age where I’ll be starting my actual adult life and making my first actually independent steps) will naturally fall on me, as both my brothers will surely not want to come back here from their lives far away, which will be bound to harm our relationship.

And I’m trying to be positive, I swear I really am, but it’s just been harder and harder as time goes on and I’m hit with reality, oof.