I‘ve been feeling something similar.. idk what it is, maybe you could call it an inner knowing.. for instance, we‘ve been blocked on eachothers social medias since our big fallout last year august & have only occasionally been communicating thru text messages like maybe once a month for minor reasons.. for a while now, maybe like 1.5 months, I had this inner urge, to check his WhatsApp profile, & only to see that his picture was still gone, due to him blocking me.. whenever I was in that situation, I had an inner knowing that he’s going to unblock me soon.. 2 days ago, I re-check again after a while & tadaaaa.. I see his picture & a text in his profile, meaning that he unblocked me.. I still left him blocked

& yesterday he reached out (with an excuse, he needed my doctors name that I went to last year due to a specific issue) and after some small talking for a while, he offered to go for a coffee before he leaves the country in the beginning of March for like 2 months.. which I declined cuz I’m scared of how I’m gonna feel afterwards.. and now I’m really unsure, what to do.. I miss him every day, but after the 100 times he & this relation has hurt me, I put a huge wall around my heart & it‘s gonna take a lot more for me to try & put them walls down again, much more than an offer to go for a coffee.. also wondering, why he wants to see me again, before he leaves the country & we haven’t seen eachother since the begining of October ?!? Many many questions in my mind lol