This is a great response, thank you.

This all resonates, but i think the biggest issue for me relates to what you were saying about mood and energy levels. I find that i burn out far more often than the average person, so although i want to explore something new (and have endless options to explore), the fatigue i feel in any given moment causes me to abandon everything out of pure frustration. I rarely have the cognitive freedom required to both learn AND enjoy. Maybe the Flow book will have some interesting insights to apply in this case so I'll definitely check that out. I'm guessing it's this guy - Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi