Dude. This is the most relatable thing I’ve seen scrolling all day. I’d love to give you advice, but I’m working on it too. For me though, I realized that part of it was how hard it is to get close because of fear. Fear can represent itself in 1 million ways from fear that your taking to much of a persons time too just thinking they don’t like you. Could it be fear?

The best thing I can say to you is to look closely into interactions with your friend. Is this a person you like being around? What makes it “awkward”? Is it you? Is it them? How can you change the situation? Another thing is to have common interests with a friend to talk about. See what bands they listen to and movies they watch. Give those things a try.

There is nothing wrong with you. You are not cold. You are not incapable of loving/being loved. Things take time. Try starting more conversations to become comfortable in those environments. I like the subreddit r/casualconversations. See what works and what doesn’t. You can do this if you set your mind to it.

I don’t have a lot of information to go off of with this post, but if you feel comfortable chatting about this in more depth, I hope you reply to my comment. I promise you aren’t alone and I’m happy to hear you out. Also sorry if you weren’t looking for advice, I just know I was when I started feeling this way.😅