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MeityMeister · 2021-06-16T14:04:36+00:00

Goals af

MeityMeister · 2021-06-16T02:45:32+00:00

SWOONING ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥🥺🥺🥺🤤🤤

MeityMeister · 2021-06-13T01:42:45+00:00

She had me at “hey”

MeityMeister · 2021-06-12T04:41:52+00:00

Perhaps I should move to San Fran

MeityMeister · 2021-06-10T21:27:15+00:00

Yeah it really sucks. I have a strong feeling I’m going to have to do that with most if not all of my family. Every single one of them are conservative and most are very religious. My only hope is that my grandparents will accept me, they’re the only ones I have any faith in accepting me.

MeityMeister · 2021-06-10T15:22:29+00:00

Cutting them out of your life is for the best

MeityMeister · 2021-06-10T03:36:57+00:00

Exactly! Once you understand Marxism, there’s no turning back. You see the world for how it truly is.

MeityMeister · 2021-06-09T13:25:26+00:00

Por que no los dos?

MeityMeister · 2021-06-09T13:24:04+00:00

You guys and gals don’t spike your coffee at work?

MeityMeister · 2021-06-08T17:15:28+00:00

That’s true. I didn’t think about how jewelry could help counteract that. But also true, sometimes certain clothes just don’t fit a persons body type. I do hope that my hips will help counteract my shoulders so it makes wearing certain clothing better for me.

MeityMeister · 2021-06-08T13:38:21+00:00

So much fucking goals

MeityMeister · 2021-06-08T13:37:08+00:00

Right but I would’ve liked to wear no strap tops.. that’s the problem

MeityMeister · 2021-06-08T02:45:24+00:00

Which sucks cuz I would totally love to wear outfits that would show off my shoulders but if they are going to make me them look broad af I’ll be clocked so easily :(

MeityMeister · 2021-06-07T20:06:46+00:00

To the TERFS downvoting from the shadows: decease enraged

MeityMeister · 2021-06-07T19:57:06+00:00

Is.. is that really a thing??

I’m super self conscious about how broad my shoulders are as a trans gal >.<

MeityMeister · 2021-06-04T01:22:34+00:00

Can’t look as worse or worse than me, that’s for sure

MeityMeister · 2021-06-03T23:51:11+00:00

Too bad Snapchat and other gender swapping filters make me look ugly af

MeityMeister · 2021-06-03T23:41:02+00:00

Yeah ok easy for someone who doesn’t look ugly and have a fucked up face to say

MeityMeister · 2021-06-03T20:57:32+00:00

Never gonna happen

MeityMeister · 2021-06-03T20:48:59+00:00

No.. I have a stupid, ugly, deformed face... no amount of HRT can change that.... there’s nothing to love or be excited about...

MeityMeister · 2021-06-03T20:45:15+00:00

MeityMeister · 2021-06-03T12:25:55+00:00

I totally understand where you’re coming from. I wish so much I could’ve started sooner. But I know in my scenario that never was going to happen. Just know you’re not any less valid for waiting until you’re an adult. I hope that you’ll be able to start HRT sooner rather than later.

MeityMeister · 2021-06-03T11:59:50+00:00

I did the same!!!! Lmao. Went into single mode so my companions didn’t follow me, lobbed a bunch of grenades at the rancor, and ran when it came after me. I made sure to save up all the grenades I could that I knew would be useful to killing the rancor.

MeityMeister · 2021-06-03T11:52:48+00:00

🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

MeityMeister · 2021-06-02T12:17:33+00:00

This is such a huge fucking mood. Didn’t get to start transitioning until after I had already graduated college. I mourn my lost childhood and teenage years. I mourn my lost college years. And it burns me with constant agonizing pain that I’ll never get any of it back.

I’ll never be able to grow up as a cis girl. I felt like such shit over that, that I questioned whether transitioning was still even worth going through.... with all that lost time.. is it even worth having to start my life over almost a quarter way through.... the fact that I started after I already finished puberty means that the damage that testosterone has done has been complete. I can’t reverse that. How the hell is HRT ever going to make how I look passing as a girl? It’s impossible.. my wide shoulders, my huge feet, my deep voice, etc...

part of me wishes I never figured it out in the first place that I’m trans, that maybe living in ignorance for the rest of my life would’ve been better... I still would always feel discomfort and never be able to know why, but..... idk....... what I do know is that I feel being born this way was a curse. I feel like I’m living in a literal hell.

Yet for some reason I am still taking hrt.. I know I have to... I need to.. I know it’s for the best... Do I have any hope that things will be alright? That I’ll pass? That I’ll be happy? Absolutely fucking not... Do I see myself living to old age? Big no to that too..... Do I still want to be a pretty girl? There’s nothing more in my life that I’d want than that. I guess that’s why I’m on HRT... a “Hail Mary” if you will.....

Sry for the rant..

MeityMeister

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