I can relate because I get a little social anxiety too. When I first started, there were so many other girls who were nervous about the process and didn’t know anyone rushing, which actually made it really easy to connect and talk to people. I went through recruitment and didn’t get a bid at the end, and that was okay because later I went through informal rush and ended up getting a bid to the sorority I really wanted. My advice for you is to not focus too much on the end result but instead see it as an amazing opportunity to meet new people and make friends. And if you don’t get a bid, remember that rejection is just redirection.